Half day

Today my working shift is half day,means tat i only have to work 4 hours.After working ,its bout 2.30,b4 tat planned to buy some dvd at sg.wang,as 3 for 10,i can watch 3 movies instead of 1 in cinema by tat,but maybe becoz the god oso support original,when i step out of midvalley north court entrance,the sky was dark,gesture of raining,so i changed my mind to watch movie alone,as too late for me to find friends out.I watched Sahara,so lucky to get a back middle seat,haha,on my left is wan malay gal oso watching alone,seems like i`m not the only wan who watch movie alone..the movie not so suprising,just normal,heroism kind,anyway,i oso din aspect much from tat,just sort of entertainment..after tat then just went home..

There`s another old song i like now very much,sing by liu ruo yin n guang liang,very nice song,the lyrics sounds stupid,but just like me,haha,little bit stupid...still got wan months more for me to wait...

我等你

不做考虑也没半点犹豫,

我就说了这一句我等你.

你眼中闪过了一些压抑,

更多的是怀疑,所以你可以离去.

不相信你还会回心转意,

是我任性才决定要等你,

我眼中的泪没掉过一滴,

只是随你背影,慢慢倒流进心里.

我等你,半年为期,逾期就狠狠把你忘记,

不止是伤心的还包括一切甜蜜.

要等你,要证明自己我可以纵容你在心里,

也可以当你只是路过的人而已.

不相信你还会回心转意,

是我任性才决定要等你,

我眼中的泪没掉过一滴,

只是随你背影,慢慢倒流进心里底.

我等你,半年为期,逾期就狠狠把你忘记,

不止是伤心的还包括一切甜蜜.

要等你,要证明自己我可以纵容你在心里,

也可以当你只是路过的人而已.

我等你,半年为期,逾期就狠狠把你忘记,

你应该已经和她公开在一起.

要等你,要证明自己我可以纵容你在心里,

也可以当你只是路过的人而已.

爱到痛自己才需要一段等你的限期,来遗忘自己.

Erghhhhhh

Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Argggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Huh!!!!Sien until i fat mou liao......Why the times always go so slow when u wan it to go fast??????
Feel like wanna go to beach n scream,but as long as there isn`t any beach at kl,so i scream here,at least better then scream somewhere else make people feel like i`m crazy..
1st is my job...Feel more n more tiring of serving customer everyday...As the shop emphasize much on customer service,have to greet every customer when they comes in,smile,n then push sales,....although i dun really wanna smile to them,arghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I wanna work,but dunwanna always wanna push sales,greeting is ok to me,but i hate pushing sales,coz me myself hate promoter who push sales on me,n now i have to be like tat....Besides,in this month quite a few accident happens in my shop,lost money,lost stock...Although those incidents does not happen on myself,but just feel like cannot trust anywan in the shop,as to protect sendiri..there must be somewan else in the shop got problem,stupid,makes the shop atmosphere not so good now...
2nd things,felt like i still dunwan to forget hui leng,although its nearly 2 months she went ns,n its so long since the last msg she`d replied..thinking of call her,but at last still din take any action,coz i dunwan myself to get hurt anymore,as i just noe her few weeks,although met her two months...just a dream...maybe...just wait until she comes back,then i`ll forget her,.....am i still putting some hope on her???I oso dunno,.....just feel sad evertime waiting for last train at midvalley ktm station...

Idle

Wah..Nowadays i seems like becoming "night ghost" liao,coz yam cha one or two days every week at night 12.00 like tat..always got scolded b4 i go..although it`s just mamak nearby..coz nowadays if work noon ,10.30 only end work,n then gonna wait ktm last train 10.58,after reached home is 11.25 earliest,so i can only yam cha at 12..coz sometimes working really sien,gonna find friends out chat,so i always yam cha wif a friend oso working at midvalley,last time different class,oso not very sook,but now more sook,coz both working same place n live nearby,of coz,he`s guy,or not where can yam cha so late..sien arh..................................

Purpose of life

Today my best friend asked me wat is purpose of life,wat is purpose of life?????
I`m sure this qustion dun have exact answer,to me,maybe just to live,or more accurately,to live a happy life,doing wat i hope to do,like to do...Am i happy now??Not really,although now quite free,nth to bz about n just waiting..Besides,felt quite lonely,best friend still at singapore,although still got many friends,but mostly not so close,some close but still not the kind of friends heart to heart..so wun think of find them out purposely,maybe just occasionally...last week think of find an old friend out gathering,sheau ming,old classmate since form two,noe her in icq although in the same class,long time din contact her,although we used to chat every weekend since we noe..but tat day called her out,still felt like very dissapointed,still kinda ai4 mu4 xu1 rong2 she`ve changed to,aih...,not the good friend i noe last time anymore...environment maybe will change one person...
Besides,dunno y i`m still writing the blog...maybe too lonely,or maybe after writing here will feel better...or maybe someway of contact wif somewan...U still remember the sms test u sent me last time?Wat will i think of if think of u?i`ve choosed sky...N then the test answer is quite accurate...a person who helps to solve problems..U`re wan of the best friend i treassure very much,although our relationship starts on9..all de best in ur stpm..


Learn To Be Lonely
Child of the wilderness
Born into emptiness
Learn to be lonely
Learn to find your way in darkness
Who will be there for you
Comfort and care for you
Learn to be lonely
Learn to be your one companion
Never dreamed out in the world
There are arms to hold you?
You've always known
Your heart was on its own
So laugh in your loneliness
Child of the wilderness
Learn to be lonely
Learn how to love life that is lived alone
Learn to be lonely life can be lived life can be loved Alone.

Lyrics adapted from The phantom of the opera

Late night..

Today,in the morning,my mood is quite good,went to the optical shop n find a new spec,a spec. i pay wif money i earned myself,quite happy wif tat,coz b4 tat my spec all are cheap wan and not so good.But actually i dun like spec n never like to be short sighted,to me my eye is the best part of my whole body,n i never like my eyes to be block by anything,even though eye glasses is transparent,n never light to c things clearly only through lens..stupid,tats y now i dun play computer games anymore..Anyway,getting a better spec will let me feel more comfortable..
Today should be my 4th day as a cashier in the shop,but today my "big sister",every new staff will have a senior to look after went back early.In the shop got 3 senior,a guy,seems like 25 or 26 like tat,dun quite like him,n then my "big sister" n the other senior,today only the guy senior there,n to be he`s really like an idiot,never believe the ability of others,as if i`m dummy,although maybe he is b4 tat..N then not willing to teach..Hey man,u`re really testing my patience,for ur age,working for so many years liao,still just a sales assistant,not being promoted,n u really looks like a dummies..For your performance,n ability,after few years u still are a promoter,wun be promoted,n ur life will ends up like tat..Really hate such kind of person..
Huh!!I`ve finish fa xie here..Of coz i wun let such person make me not happy of working,as other staffs there are just nice..
Another things i dun like now is the period waiting for ktm when working noon shift.In this shop,working noon shift,we start work late,but oso end work late.Normally most of the shops end work at 10,but for us we end at 10.30,so i have to wait for the last train which will arrive at 10.58,so have to wait 20 minutes more,n the train mostly will be delayed..Tat time i`m already exhausted,so just sit on the stairs waiting for the train..Aih!!!whenever i`m alone at midvalley ktm station at night waiting for train,i`ll think of her,the gal i used to c almost everyday in last jan n feb..not much hope to meet her again..as she din reply me for long time..two months more for her ns..Hope she enjoys the ns...

offday

Today offday,yeah!!Can rest a bit liao...
Nowadays working better liao,coz most of the time got stuff to do,the time will pass faster ,n then i wun be so sien..But now i hope most is the U faster faster start,i`m so eager so step in to U instead of wasting time to be promoter everyday doing routine meaningless..the benifits just i know some friends,hmm,n then hui leng,n then c more lenglui,n then learned something not very useful...n then now i realized sth,i`ve almost put aside my plan to read reader`s digest always for few months liao..shit!!how can i compete wif those singaporian who like to use those difficult words always..must find somemore motivation to force me to use english more..,maybe blog more,but using proper english..