One of my 2006 goal comes to truth

YEah yeah YEAH!!!!
Today is the day which my year 2 semester 1 result will be released.In the morning i went back to my secondary school Chong Hwa independent High( KL ),to have a well ,small gathering.Quite unlucky at 1st. The bus transport system in KL has changed to Rapid KL system, which is sth similar to Singapore system,means tat the old numbers are all changed except for Metrobus. So i totally have to idea how to take bus to Chong Hwa, which is now needed to change bus if take from kl wif Rapid KL. So i walk around Cetral market area, n saw wan bus heading to Selayang, then the conductor say can go Jln Ipoh,so i n my friend just get on the bus. But then the bus not departing for 15minutes,so we get off the bus.But then 5 seconds after we left the bus,the driver get on the bus n took off....But then we managed to find the bus 43,which is still same as last time to get to my school.Then have a small gathering there,playing futsal.Well i dun like futsal,soccer and basketball,which most guys like,so i left them n walk around the school myself,hmm the school has change a bit, the pond is painted orange wif fountain now, then saw quite a lot of student came back for activities, n i recalled my nice old days in secondary school...then by the time walking around, heard somebody called me, hehe, i almost dun recognize them, my di zi junior in chinese orchestra, n they've grown much..then met a few more chinese orchestra member,n listened to their practice..hmm their skill still didn't improve much, especially di zi, the most out of pitch n loud instrument..feel guilty tat i din teach them well when i was the group leader,coz i'm loussy too..wahahaaa..aih.

Till the evening i went back home. Just nice, after 6pm, my result is out..so nervous to check my result..n then to my surprise tat i got 2A n 1 A+, hehe...1st time in my life in nus getting A, n a A+ which i never expect it,furthermore the 2A is my engine core module, further furthermore i got more than my goal which is above cap 4.0,.....so many miracles..Yeah!! got so many bonus..Hmm i did prepare for the exam, prepared harder than previous 2 sem, but still i'm lucky, coz the bell curve, n some modules i din really prepare tat well, n i only start study b4 exam n slacking in normal days, which is not good..so my nx year resolution, not to slack in normal days..time is precious..I'll appreciate time!

emptyness (cont')

7th dec , the day b4 tzu ji camp, feeling nervous, hope to find some new friends, sincerity n experience new things in the camp. Well, after the camp its a bit different from wat my dear dear cousin told me..One fine day i got a call from her n invited me to join the camp, then just din treat it seriously, n my dear dear cousin just tell me tat 1st day is learn bout myself, 2nd day learn bout filial, 3rd day bout recycling, then got pretty in the camp, so after she urge me for 2nd time, then i join the camp, since i have nth to do after exam, n the hall stay is till 11th, so i joined the camp.Maybe i just simply agree, so she oso din tell me much in detail..

8th dec, morning i was a bit in the rush, n dun have enough sleep,which is not good, coz i'll not get enough sleep during the camp,from past experiences.Was a bit late, but luckily managed to be punctual,just nice, 8.30am arrived at Pasir Ris MRT. Saw Tzu ji banner, then went to bus stop to wait for transport. Haha, when i got into the van then talk to the guy beside me, then only found out tat he's from the same school, my junior, yuan shen, 2 of his friends is from amcisa, n one of them is oso from the same school, the world is so small..so we arrived at the tzu ji hq, a bit shock wif the warm welcome, n saw my cousin, simply greet her then go, felt a bit weird to have a cousin in the camp..then when the camp started i was a bit shock wif the "rules n regulations" of the camp, wow so strict, n felt tat is a bit serious, a bit different from wat i expected, anyway i'm used to strict rules ,after being well trained by chong hwa independent hight school KL. Aftertat the camp started wif ice breaker, then the station game. One of the more memorable wan was the session which i have to write down wat i fear most, wow, tats a bit challenging, actually got 2 things i feared, one is to find a position in the big crowd, the other wan is to talk to gal(shy? no confidence? , i think both), but i just write down one,hmm, think no wan can help me to solve the problem, the problem only can be solve by myself, to join more activities..then follows by 2 session of sharing session,well i appreciate tat they share their views, but din concentrate much since i'm not used to the chair, couldn't sit there comfortably for too long, btw the sharings was a bit general, so i just listen a bit n daydream a bit..so the 1st day was okok..but the things is tat wat i found in the camp is tat friends in the camp are very helpful,warm n sincere, which was very different from wat i hate on my hall, n NUS, people who put on their mask, so this is the most beautiful things for tzu ji.

2nd day, tat day was much more interesting compare to 1st day. In the morning we went to visit a patient,well wat i've seen in the house is an empty house with a old uncle staying there.Hmm tis doesn't shock me much, since i saw a lot during the Garang Guni session for my hall flag, saw a lot of poor people in the HDB, yet they are still willing to donate their newspaper, old shirts n electrical appliances, wat n irony for the hall to waste $12,000 to build a float to win so many prizes, n to tear it off after rag day, n i was one of the raggers.Back to the home visit, the uncle was nth different from the outlook, n we chatted a short while wif him.Hmm he doesnt have friends n family, n he said tat he doesn't like to talk much..hmm i oso doesn't like to talk much in the crowd, n i'm not so close wif my brother n sister, so have to communicate more wif them.n luckily i've caring family, n friends.not many, but a few close friends.so hope tat the uncle will have a happy life. Nx was the video by a tzu ji senior from taiwan, i was really touched by his talk. He pointed out so many harsh truth, n i cried when i listen to the aghanism( dunno how to spell) song, with the translation.The lyrics are so meaningful,if i din remember wrong wan line talk about the destruction of the earth, n the photos of those poor souls, n the touching tune....

At night, we 1st have a short drama session about some stories bout filial.wow, i was borned to be stone, so my acting wasn't good, but wat i saw was the our group members n other groups was acting very well, natural, n bring out moral of the stories. After tat it was a videao screening session, well i saw some of the videos b4 during the performance by tzu ji in UCC, but i think they added one new story, a story which is like telling my story, n i started to cry (2nd time in tis camp),not stopping until i finished my letter,but i decided not to mail the letter to my parents, i've rejected every single activities during the holiday, to go home..so i'll stay together wif them for the holiday..btw i felt a lot better after writing the letter. So my 2nd day at camp is the most touching , most memorable day..

Last day of camp, hmm today felt a bit heavy n empty.Well sometimes i felt tat they showed to much video to promote the charity works, to me i dun need to watch so many videos, just a few, touching video, n i'll got impressed.too much video will make me feel uncomfortable.Guilty? or sometimes will feel tat like its not so good to promote the charity job too much, too much like will makes the charity work like to be done in purpose to let people noe, am i thinking to too much?haha, tats me , pieces.Well the lunch was the best vegetarian lunch i've every have, thanks those who serves us food n drinks during the camp, n the group leaders, who take care of our group during the entire camp. So it come to the final part, inauguration ceremony,hmm there were some religious part in tat, hmm, to me okok, since i'm non religious, felt a bit weird,anyway just follow the crowd.So tats the end of the camp..

Got some new friends from the camp, mostly from my groups, well i'm satisfied wif the camp,n thx my dear dear cousin for inviting me to join the camp, n those who prepared ,planned, put in effort in the camp to make it a good one. On the way back to hall, noe some friends from other group,how nice..n at night when yam cha wif a good friend from MSL, only noe tat many of them in tzu ji camp are her friends,the world is really small.....

emptyness

hoooh... 2nd time feeling empty in this month, 1st time is after exam, 2nd time is after the tzu ji camp, all the while living a busy life n now suddenly so free, no need to hurry, alone in the room, facing laptop n wall....tats the feeling i get after every camps, exams, competitions, performances..

4th Dec, finished my last paper Marketing, an evil subject, really evil, tats business n law, but i like business modules, n planned to minor in business, cos they're interesting, am i evil?just feel tat i gained some confidence in those subjects, n need sth different to balance my boring engine core module, n business is practical..after so many lessons in the camp, will i still interested in business.haha, of coz, i have to noe the evil to protect myself..btw business can be not so evil if u're not evil..hopefully tis module can push my cap too..

4th-7th dec, the exam was in the morning, so after exam i'm free!wat i did after go back to my room?searching for movies n drama.Watch a few korean n japanese movie from the site n finally found wan nice korean drama, Only You.Talking about a love story, ........,dunno how to write sypnosis, but the drama is nice.Why izzit nice?maybe the actress is pretty, but not really tat pretty compare to Goong, but then she's very natural, frank..n the story is touching..so i continued watching the drama n prepare to move my room(stupid hall tis year dun have the option to store my things in my own room). Btw i actually planned to take part in XQRJ competition, but i barely have time n resources, i needed to complete the things b4 the tzu ji camp coz i'm going home n the deadline is 20th.Well i finally finalized the tune at 6th Dec night, or midnight,a sad song again, well a not very happy person wun noe how to write a decent happy song.tis song i got the inspiration after amcisa mooncake festival celebration, when i felt empty n lonely after the celebration,but the tune is not completed yet..Only managed to find back the feeling after walk around singapore wif 2 friends(Chinatown, Vivo,Harbour front),so sien, y Singapore's lifestyle so boring?so when i felt sien, the inspiration comes back, n i finalized the tune..but where to find people to help me wif my lyrics?my chinese is not good, although studying chinese since primary school, but then wat is different here is tat i hardly can find anywan who is good at chinese here?Nvm leave it, worse to worse not to take part in XQRJ only, the song still can get publicity, but to a bunch of audience who dunno how to appreciate,Kent Ridgeans, (ops i'm a Kent Ridgean too).Anyway, writing song is just to throw away my bad feelings into the song, then after tat i'll feel better,so tats it..

Beauty & the Beast