Siang

珍惜眼前

2009-01-13T01:05:00.002+08:00

新学期开始了！！！
这学期可是大学生涯里的最后一学期。和上学期相比，这学期可是非常难得的平顺。
室友去了挪威，终于让我恢复以往的真常生活（无时无刻的拉大提琴，早睡早起），最难得的是，每天可以安心的入眠。希望这样的生活能够持续下去（期待。。）

由于要做 final year project, 早在去年12 月假期间，我已开始了大四的第二学期。渐渐的，坐落在工科系的一个工厂楼上的实验室，可说是我在这里的第二个家了。。渐渐的，也慢慢的开始认识这实验室，和实验室里的两个博士生。此外，也非常感激他们两给予的帮助。而final year project 的执行，也让我郁闷、空虚、寂寞。。。的生活变得充实。学习，还蛮开心的！

此外，我也很幸运的标到了Corporate Finance. 不但能完成minor，而且还有个很好的lecturer.

希望，充实的生活能持续下去。而我，也会坚持的努力学习！！

病

2008-12-08T04:14:00.002+08:00

经过了漫长的等待，大四第一学期终于随着大考的结束而成为过去。原以为一切都计划好了，可是就在最后一科考试的前三天，感冒了。当时在想，感冒有什么大不了呢? 可是这感冒，就偏偏引发了多年前的气管炎。每当身体平躺在床上，就会不停的咳嗽，咳累了，就得爬起身。就这样，连续五天没得好睡。缺乏睡眠，病情便无法好转。看了四次医生，结果还是咳个不停。。。

今晚，不打算睡了。刚刚曾尝试睡觉，可是却把喉咙咳得红肿。如果情况持续，恐怕身体难以承受。唯有提起精神，天亮了再去看医生吧，毕竟半夜的门诊费实在太贵了。。。

可怜的室友，这几天必须忍耐着我生病所带来的一切不便。。。

在国外念书的朋友们，记得要保重身体，不然就得学习如何独立，及承受一个人生病时的无助和无奈。

外边还在下着大雨，再过四小时，就可以看医生了。希望一切会雨过天晴，顺利完成 final year project 的评估考，过后可以顺顺利利的回家吧。。。

开学

2008-08-13T20:19:00.003+08:00

转眼间，3个月的长假结束了，而我已经是个大四学生了。假期间，遇到了许多倒霉的事。庆幸的是，倒霉往往会让我因祸得福，包括遇见贵人和吸取经验。此外，这次的假期，有别以往的是，我终于有体会到一点的大学生应有的大学生活。这3个月的假期里，认识了一斑大三的amcisa juniors 们，感谢 isaac 和 phang hau，让我能认识到之么多的朋友。。

新学期的开始，而我，又有着另一个因祸得福的际遇。我被分配到八大志愿以外，以及和兴趣无关的 final year project . 在academic advisor Prof. Tan , 和project supervisor 的帮助下，总算成功换的到一个和太阳能有关的 final year project. Renewable Energy, 是我非常感兴趣的一个领域，而且这 project 的 supervisor, 和一个直属博士班的学长，都非常认真的看待这个 project. 这一切，真的是非常非常的难得的，算是集合了 “天时、地利、人和” 吧！（p/s : 我又在滥用词语了，哈哈）

感谢这一切际遇，和成就了这些际遇的每个人。我一定会好好把握、珍惜、努力，完成最后一年的大学生涯，学习宝贵的知识和经验，还有，认识更多的真心朋友（a.k.a 知己）！

倒霉

2008-06-30T19:54:00.004+08:00

或许是命犯太岁，在我的人生旅程中，麻烦的事情，通常都会发生在我身上。霉运，总是如影随身般的，没完没了。庆幸的是，每当遇到麻烦，总会有个贵人及时出现，给予帮助。

上班时，不幸的被卷入办公室政治，成为受害者，差点中炒。心里觉得很委屈，可是却因祸得福，换来一个值得学习的上司，贵人。让我学习面对残酷的现实社会，平衡着现实和理想。

工作上的风波才被平息，下学期的住宿又出现了问题。辛辛苦苦累积课外活动换来的房间，偏偏就坐落在厕所隔壁。每天必须忍受着噪音（冲水声，如厕声。。。）、夜来香和潮湿。这一切，就发生在大学生涯的最后一年。我真的对这个世界排名前30的大学，非常非常的失望。

我真的好累、好累啊！！！

不过我还是会奋力争取我应有的权利，不轻易放弃，努力的学好这份社会大学给我的功课！！！

对下个音乐创作营的期待

2007-11-26T15:38:00.000+08:00

小时候，看见哥哥姐姐都学钢琴，于是便有样学样的吵着要学琴，可是五分钟热度的我，才学到第四级便放弃了，理由？懒得练习，哈哈。这是五年级时的我。

上了中学，开始接触各式各样的音乐，加入了华乐团，学吉他，笛子，还搞创作，重点是，我开始爱上了音乐！记得高一时第一次参加校内歌曲创作比赛，参赛的两首曲子都入选决赛，对于刚开始创作歌曲的我无非是个很大的鼓励。这个比赛可说是我曾参加过的比赛当中最难忘的一个。从录音参赛，放学后练习，到比赛得奖的整个过程都非常难忘。感谢当时所有和我一同参赛的每一位，尤其是《距离》这首歌的作词人，洁慧，你的歌词是众多首歌里面最棒的！！

高二（2002）学校假期时参加了星洲日报和Sedaya 举办的一个歌曲创作营，让我第一次接触到那么多热爱音乐的朋友们。当时的音乐营叫“玄律”创作营，虽然只有短短三天两夜，整个音乐营的内容可非常的多姿多彩。除了创作讲座，还有品冠现场自弹自唱，舞蹈和歌曲创作比赛。哈哈，我还收着当时的营服，还真想遇到当时和我一样曾参加那次的音乐营的朋友。

最近，新加坡福音诗也即将举办一个类似的音乐营。很高兴营费已经降至50元新币，也就是说我有机会参加这个音乐营了！！！希望可以顺利参加这个歌曲创作营，认识一些热爱音乐的知己，重拾当年的美好回忆，同时期待会有着不同的体验。

开学的“礼物”

2007-08-22T19:48:00.000+08:00

新的学期终于开始了，而今年将迈入大学三年级了！新学期的开始，心里中会充满着计划和梦想。可是学期刚开始，就开始面对接二连三的考验！！使我不得不将一些计划搁下，唉，真可惜。最先发难的，就是我每天休息、娱乐、阅读的寝室，同时也是我在新加坡唯一的栖身之所。一踏入房门，就发现奶粉罐已跌落地上？门窗没开，怎么会无缘无故掉下来呢？这个疑惑一直到晚上，才得以解答。原来房间被老鼠光顾了！老鼠仿佛练了愈加，就连窗口的一丝隙缝也能钻进！最终这问题得以解决，方法是把百叶窗一一压紧，这样老鼠再好的愈加也进不来了。

好了，老鼠进不来了，大蚂蚁却天天来找我，好无奈。。。大蚂蚁的生命力比普通蚂蚁强多了。普通蚂蚁只需蚊油就可将之轻易消灭，而大蚂蚁则需用力的将它捏死。蚂蚁有时会爬上床，害得我天天难以安睡。经过了几番波折，今天终于让我找到了蚂蚁粉，希望蚂蚁不要再来找我了！

除了昆虫的困扰，我的开学礼物还有颗智慧牙呢！就在我到新加坡的第五天，智慧牙便开始发难。牙齿疼痛最恼人，就连止痛药也难以抑制。在这情况下，唯有把牙齿拔掉。可是在新加坡拔牙是非常昂贵的，一颗牙大概需500新币，我可负担不起。于是当机立断，立即搭早班巴士回国，下午时便把智齿拔掉。拔牙后隔两天就搭巴士去新加坡。当晚看了一场精彩的烟花表演。可是烟花表演的结束，也是我拔智齿后噩梦的延续！拔牙部位开始疼痛，阵阵的疼痛，并非一般止痛药能抑制。上网查询，才发现我得了Dry Socket。于是今早便预约了牙科。牙医把拔牙部位清洗干净，同时也给了我一些抗生素，这过程可是非常痛苦的。现在牙龈没那么痛了，希望问题别再复发，我可不想再挨牙科医生的麻醉针！保佑、祝福、祈祷我的智齿噩梦早日结束！一切顺顺利利，早日康复！

《东张西望》朱琦

2007-05-29T22:51:00.000+08:00

“现代人就像茫茫大海上的船夫，疲倦不堪地划着小船，却不知何处是终点，何处是归程。”

我也有同感。

2007-05-28T22:48:00.000+08:00

今天诸多事情都不顺利，可是却有件事令我感到欢喜若狂。欢喜若狂？有什么事情能令我“欢喜若狂”呢？了解我的朋友，第一时间就能说出原因。。。今天又遇见了她（你），称得上是巧遇吧；巧遇还是其次，重点是，我终于对她打招呼了！（哈哈，这有什么大不了？）虽然是一件小事，却有着某种意义，这里就不多说了，哈哈。。。

dissapointment, again..

2007-05-18T18:57:00.000+08:00

Suddenly felt a bit tired of my friend ( good friend ?), a bit doubt. Once we were very good friend in Chong Hwa,but now seems like things have change a bit, some distance is starting to form btw us,since I'm in NUS, while he's in NTU.Put aeroplane after one another, everytime I'm the one who take the initiative to visit him, n I'm always given the last priority.Seems that the friendship is no longer worth to keep it warm.Tired.Lets just c wat will happen in the future.

1st day on internship

2007-05-07T20:49:00.000+08:00

Today is the day where my vacation internship in Astar starts,also the start of NUS vacation.Woke up early in the morning ,7am just as wat is planned,after getting ready,it's time to search for breakfast.This doesn't happens in normal day in hall,as breakfast is ready there for u to collect,tis seems luxurious, but i don't like it, as i don't have to right to choose what and when to eat ( even not to eat). However from today onwards there will be no more ready made breakfast n dinner,cause I'm moving out of the hall soon.Yeah!!!Leaving this very badly cultured ( perhaps "uncultured") hall and moving to RidgeView.Well I did get something from the hall, perhaps some experience in banana culture, opportunity to sing in choir(haha, I can sing too),doing labour's work in hall production n rag ( well, i gain much skills and trained my determination through this 2 activities, while the experience in hall production was quite fun;Rag was a bad wan,we won a lot of prizes,but in terms of friendship,it sucks.Sad for me,as the prize means nth to me,as the process was bad, n i wan friendship!!), after all the conclusion is this is a very bad place if u dunwan to surrender to western/singapore culture,you can learn singapore culture very fast here,n u have to make ur choice.If wanna be banana,then u'll be very happy here;If u insist on ur own culture, u'll feel terrible here.I choosed the later one after 2 years, and now I'm leaving this place.Goodbye Kent Ridge Hall, hope not to "See You" again.

Well continue on my story..Since there is no breakfast provided, I try my luck on business canteen.To my delight most stores are open,haha,n i bought a cup of tea n some pau's enjoying my breakfast in the canteen.After enjoying my breakfast n settling some stuffs, it's time to start working for the first day.I was so nervous before stepping into the company.Well, after some long waiting i was leaded to my working space and start my job.Well I did have quite a few working experienced previously,however i only got 4 days working experience in an office.So still need sometime to get used to the office workin environment.Well cannot write too much about the details here,but I'm glad to work there.1st I can learn things there with some purpose,if not my holiday will ends up wasting time,2ndly i oso can noe some friends from there.Hmm..lazy to write liao..tats it for today..a good start for my internship.

weak body

2007-04-04T23:11:00.000+08:00

Recently like my body not working very well leh. My right shoulder that part of the muscle cramped 2 times for like 10min.(last sat n today). Dunno wats going on.Kinda weird feeling,my hand still can move, no problem, but then feel like the pain from inside,around the ga lat dai area,hopefully dun come again,maybe just wrong posture studying too long,but I'm just stuying in normal position, sitting on a chair wif standard table height, wats going wrong?

btw my leg oso, kinda flat foot,recently dunno walk too much or wat,recently keeps like pain.So i temporarily wear my running shoe out to lectures ,reduced a bit with the shock absorbing,but when i wear my slippers then it get very bad,somemore always have to climb up n down to pantry.ai, ailments go away..i still got many things need to do..n i couldnt afford for any major treatment..

I shall eat more healthy, although now is already quite healthy ( whole grains, no maggie n more vege n fruits).More regular sleep, less coffee n tea....

March Odysey

2007-03-11T23:12:00.000+08:00

Yeah,today is our chinese orchestra performance.Early morning i prepared myself n went to UCC backstage to prepare.Wow when I was there there are a few of other cello bass player there preparing too.This concert to me is really more than words can be describe.Hmm my 1st very first big concert tat i cares much performing on UCC hall stage.An this concert means a lot to me.I started learning cello when i join NUS chinese orchestra n after one n half year struggle i finally manage to perform the pieces,those nice pieces,n performing with my favourite instrument:cello.And i think choosing to switch from di zi to cello is a correct decision.Cello is a more friendly instrument, n our cello/bass section is a good one.So many of us there n we are never alone.In contrast last time when I was playing Di zi it is so lonely,there are so few of dizi
n dizi is a loud instrument,means doesnt need so many player...
hmmm...
This is my 1st time performing as NUS chinese orchestra member n 1st time performing with cello in a concert.I made some mistake during performance,but I think I'd my best.This will be a start,n the future will be better..Thx everyone who involved in the concert n my friends who come to support.thx!!

Am I heading to the right direction?

2007-03-09T23:35:00.000+08:00

These few week will be my busiest ever weeks in my entire semester.Similar to every NUS student, there are many quizes,term papers,lab n concerts in these few weeks.While i just overcome one week of busy life,2 labs over.I did gain some confidence n happiness through the 2 labs.In the 1st lab is the digital design lab,which need me to design some scoring system using logic n some mid scale integrated circuits(70's technology).Well I really feel very happy that I manage to study finish the require chapters in order to design n I manage to get my design out b4 the lab as required.During the lab i solved some problems n now my circuit is simulated finished n wired up finish,just left the testing.Hopefully everything goes smooth,not so many wrong wiring or faulty chip,as my simulation result is perfectly correct.Which gives me some satisfaction n happiness.Btw there are sth which dissapointed me too,my friends around me y are they never grow up?In 1st year when we were study programming,they tried to design the program, but after a while then give up,then keep asking me.Sometimes i really wanna help them,but only help them when i feel that they really tried hard enough.Thats the purpose of having the designing lab- to try n error and learn from the error?Why they just want me to tell them the result and not to think themselve?After 3 sems there still never learnt that the importance of trying n learning from error,which i totally dun like.That the virtue that I appreciate most ,n i believe in most.When I was in kindergarden the teacher tell my mum that tis child is no hope,well maybe they think tat i'm stupid.While I'm in primary school my results wasn't so good at 1st but it gets better n better.In my UPSR i got B in my Malay,but aftertat i get A in my PMR Malay n A1 in spm Malay.Its not the A that makes me happy, but is that I manage to improve from B to A1.Its the same case in Uni here,in 1st year I was in totally disadvantage,poor english,new environment n UEC syllabus does not cover so much compare to A-level.However last Sem i manage to get 2A n 1 A+,thats the learning process which make the different,n this give me much encouragement to move on.But they are still something is missing.I don't have some close pal in NUS which share the same view as me.No matter is a gal or guy, I really want to find someone who likes to learn together ,motivate each other n enjoy the process n satisfaction when the result come out is good.But now ,seems like i'm on myself.Well i got some friends,maybe they are different course,n they are also in Uni n also have a busy life,n they are not staying nearby me..Where on earth the person I wish to find is?I really believe that learning together with one or two friends,or a group of friends will be much more effective,n enjoyable compare to learning on my own.Just feel that uni student always tends to compete which each other,selfish, n in NUS case,most students only care about exam.Is that exam tat important?Scoring A in exam does it means that u master the module?or just do a lot of past year paper n understand how to answer exam question?When does NUS student know how to see the big picture?
Aih..
Well go back to my happiness from the 2nd lab.The lab was about FM system,which use by radio stations.It is really a very impressive technology.Cant imagine how those smart engineers manage to create such system which can transmit information in such a good way.Morever the technology is still being use widely after so many years.

Aih..
Learning new knowledge,Improve in my skills(analytical,cello...watever..) always will bring me happiness,for a short while perhaps.I manage to get these,not the best, but at least the better, n the one always improving from failures.They are only thing lack on me,as no one is perfect,the social skills.I'm trying hard to learn social skill all the while, but it seems like it is not working so well.I still didn't find a close new friend in the Uni,no need to say a partner...My close friend,partner or gf, where are you all?

One of my 2006 goal comes to truth

2006-12-27T00:38:00.000+08:00

YEah yeah YEAH!!!!
Today is the day which my year 2 semester 1 result will be released.In the morning i went back to my secondary school Chong Hwa independent High( KL ),to have a well ,small gathering.Quite unlucky at 1st. The bus transport system in KL has changed to Rapid KL system, which is sth similar to Singapore system,means tat the old numbers are all changed except for Metrobus. So i totally have to idea how to take bus to Chong Hwa, which is now needed to change bus if take from kl wif Rapid KL. So i walk around Cetral market area, n saw wan bus heading to Selayang, then the conductor say can go Jln Ipoh,so i n my friend just get on the bus. But then the bus not departing for 15minutes,so we get off the bus.But then 5 seconds after we left the bus,the driver get on the bus n took off....But then we managed to find the bus 43,which is still same as last time to get to my school.Then have a small gathering there,playing futsal.Well i dun like futsal,soccer and basketball,which most guys like,so i left them n walk around the school myself,hmm the school has change a bit, the pond is painted orange wif fountain now, then saw quite a lot of student came back for activities, n i recalled my nice old days in secondary school...then by the time walking around, heard somebody called me, hehe, i almost dun recognize them, my di zi junior in chinese orchestra, n they've grown much..then met a few more chinese orchestra member,n listened to their practice..hmm their skill still didn't improve much, especially di zi, the most out of pitch n loud instrument..feel guilty tat i din teach them well when i was the group leader,coz i'm loussy too..wahahaaa..aih.

Till the evening i went back home. Just nice, after 6pm, my result is out..so nervous to check my result..n then to my surprise tat i got 2A n 1 A+, hehe...1st time in my life in nus getting A, n a A+ which i never expect it,furthermore the 2A is my engine core module, further furthermore i got more than my goal which is above cap 4.0,.....so many miracles..Yeah!! got so many bonus..Hmm i did prepare for the exam, prepared harder than previous 2 sem, but still i'm lucky, coz the bell curve, n some modules i din really prepare tat well, n i only start study b4 exam n slacking in normal days, which is not good..so my nx year resolution, not to slack in normal days..time is precious..I'll appreciate time!

emptyness (cont')

2006-12-11T01:38:00.000+08:00

7th dec , the day b4 tzu ji camp, feeling nervous, hope to find some new friends, sincerity n experience new things in the camp. Well, after the camp its a bit different from wat my dear dear cousin told me..One fine day i got a call from her n invited me to join the camp, then just din treat it seriously, n my dear dear cousin just tell me tat 1st day is learn bout myself, 2nd day learn bout filial, 3rd day bout recycling, then got pretty in the camp, so after she urge me for 2nd time, then i join the camp, since i have nth to do after exam, n the hall stay is till 11th, so i joined the camp.Maybe i just simply agree, so she oso din tell me much in detail..

8th dec, morning i was a bit in the rush, n dun have enough sleep,which is not good, coz i'll not get enough sleep during the camp,from past experiences.Was a bit late, but luckily managed to be punctual,just nice, 8.30am arrived at Pasir Ris MRT. Saw Tzu ji banner, then went to bus stop to wait for transport. Haha, when i got into the van then talk to the guy beside me, then only found out tat he's from the same school, my junior, yuan shen, 2 of his friends is from amcisa, n one of them is oso from the same school, the world is so small..so we arrived at the tzu ji hq, a bit shock wif the warm welcome, n saw my cousin, simply greet her then go, felt a bit weird to have a cousin in the camp..then when the camp started i was a bit shock wif the "rules n regulations" of the camp, wow so strict, n felt tat is a bit serious, a bit different from wat i expected, anyway i'm used to strict rules ,after being well trained by chong hwa independent hight school KL. Aftertat the camp started wif ice breaker, then the station game. One of the more memorable wan was the session which i have to write down wat i fear most, wow, tats a bit challenging, actually got 2 things i feared, one is to find a position in the big crowd, the other wan is to talk to gal(shy? no confidence? , i think both), but i just write down one,hmm, think no wan can help me to solve the problem, the problem only can be solve by myself, to join more activities..then follows by 2 session of sharing session,well i appreciate tat they share their views, but din concentrate much since i'm not used to the chair, couldn't sit there comfortably for too long, btw the sharings was a bit general, so i just listen a bit n daydream a bit..so the 1st day was okok..but the things is tat wat i found in the camp is tat friends in the camp are very helpful,warm n sincere, which was very different from wat i hate on my hall, n NUS, people who put on their mask, so this is the most beautiful things for tzu ji.

2nd day, tat day was much more interesting compare to 1st day. In the morning we went to visit a patient,well wat i've seen in the house is an empty house with a old uncle staying there.Hmm tis doesn't shock me much, since i saw a lot during the Garang Guni session for my hall flag, saw a lot of poor people in the HDB, yet they are still willing to donate their newspaper, old shirts n electrical appliances, wat n irony for the hall to waste $12,000 to build a float to win so many prizes, n to tear it off after rag day, n i was one of the raggers.Back to the home visit, the uncle was nth different from the outlook, n we chatted a short while wif him.Hmm he doesnt have friends n family, n he said tat he doesn't like to talk much..hmm i oso doesn't like to talk much in the crowd, n i'm not so close wif my brother n sister, so have to communicate more wif them.n luckily i've caring family, n friends.not many, but a few close friends.so hope tat the uncle will have a happy life. Nx was the video by a tzu ji senior from taiwan, i was really touched by his talk. He pointed out so many harsh truth, n i cried when i listen to the aghanism( dunno how to spell) song, with the translation.The lyrics are so meaningful,if i din remember wrong wan line talk about the destruction of the earth, n the photos of those poor souls, n the touching tune....

At night, we 1st have a short drama session about some stories bout filial.wow, i was borned to be stone, so my acting wasn't good, but wat i saw was the our group members n other groups was acting very well, natural, n bring out moral of the stories. After tat it was a videao screening session, well i saw some of the videos b4 during the performance by tzu ji in UCC, but i think they added one new story, a story which is like telling my story, n i started to cry (2nd time in tis camp),not stopping until i finished my letter,but i decided not to mail the letter to my parents, i've rejected every single activities during the holiday, to go home..so i'll stay together wif them for the holiday..btw i felt a lot better after writing the letter. So my 2nd day at camp is the most touching , most memorable day..

Last day of camp, hmm today felt a bit heavy n empty.Well sometimes i felt tat they showed to much video to promote the charity works, to me i dun need to watch so many videos, just a few, touching video, n i'll got impressed.too much video will make me feel uncomfortable.Guilty? or sometimes will feel tat like its not so good to promote the charity job too much, too much like will makes the charity work like to be done in purpose to let people noe, am i thinking to too much?haha, tats me , pieces.Well the lunch was the best vegetarian lunch i've every have, thanks those who serves us food n drinks during the camp, n the group leaders, who take care of our group during the entire camp. So it come to the final part, inauguration ceremony,hmm there were some religious part in tat, hmm, to me okok, since i'm non religious, felt a bit weird,anyway just follow the crowd.So tats the end of the camp..

Got some new friends from the camp, mostly from my groups, well i'm satisfied wif the camp,n thx my dear dear cousin for inviting me to join the camp, n those who prepared ,planned, put in effort in the camp to make it a good one. On the way back to hall, noe some friends from other group,how nice..n at night when yam cha wif a good friend from MSL, only noe tat many of them in tzu ji camp are her friends,the world is really small.....

emptyness

2006-12-11T01:08:00.000+08:00

hoooh... 2nd time feeling empty in this month, 1st time is after exam, 2nd time is after the tzu ji camp, all the while living a busy life n now suddenly so free, no need to hurry, alone in the room, facing laptop n wall....tats the feeling i get after every camps, exams, competitions, performances..

4th Dec, finished my last paper Marketing, an evil subject, really evil, tats business n law, but i like business modules, n planned to minor in business, cos they're interesting, am i evil?just feel tat i gained some confidence in those subjects, n need sth different to balance my boring engine core module, n business is practical..after so many lessons in the camp, will i still interested in business.haha, of coz, i have to noe the evil to protect myself..btw business can be not so evil if u're not evil..hopefully tis module can push my cap too..

4th-7th dec, the exam was in the morning, so after exam i'm free!wat i did after go back to my room?searching for movies n drama.Watch a few korean n japanese movie from the site n finally found wan nice korean drama, Only You.Talking about a love story, ........,dunno how to write sypnosis, but the drama is nice.Why izzit nice?maybe the actress is pretty, but not really tat pretty compare to Goong, but then she's very natural, frank..n the story is touching..so i continued watching the drama n prepare to move my room(stupid hall tis year dun have the option to store my things in my own room). Btw i actually planned to take part in XQRJ competition, but i barely have time n resources, i needed to complete the things b4 the tzu ji camp coz i'm going home n the deadline is 20th.Well i finally finalized the tune at 6th Dec night, or midnight,a sad song again, well a not very happy person wun noe how to write a decent happy song.tis song i got the inspiration after amcisa mooncake festival celebration, when i felt empty n lonely after the celebration,but the tune is not completed yet..Only managed to find back the feeling after walk around singapore wif 2 friends(Chinatown, Vivo,Harbour front),so sien, y Singapore's lifestyle so boring?so when i felt sien, the inspiration comes back, n i finalized the tune..but where to find people to help me wif my lyrics?my chinese is not good, although studying chinese since primary school, but then wat is different here is tat i hardly can find anywan who is good at chinese here?Nvm leave it, worse to worse not to take part in XQRJ only, the song still can get publicity, but to a bunch of audience who dunno how to appreciate,Kent Ridgeans, (ops i'm a Kent Ridgean too).Anyway, writing song is just to throw away my bad feelings into the song, then after tat i'll feel better,so tats it..

2006-12-11T01:05:00.000+08:00

Beauty & the Beast

Stupid flu

2006-09-16T15:30:00.000+08:00

1 week ago, in wan faithful night suddenly felt that my throat is start burning,then the nx day follow by flames n running nose,btw feeling lack of energy.I went to buy vitamin C n pipa gao, n then i felt better 2 days after.However, the problem still there n 3 days ago it become more seious, although no more sore throat, the fever comes n start feeling cold whenever got wind blow.yesterday it become even worse with diarrhoea and severe headache.It was at night n i should go n consult clinic in uni before that.Can't help, took panadol n bao ji huan to cease the pain, but seems doesn't work.Today the headache was better in the morning however the diarrhoea still there.Whatever i eat will just come out n just feeling like fatique, finally decided to go Clementi to c doctor as the university clinic is closed today.Btw bought rice to cook porridge as doctor said only can eat plain porridge for lunch n dinner.And i'm feeling a lot better after taking the medicine n maybe, 100 plus n glucolin.Hmm..This is my 2nd time felt sick seriosly since i come here to study.The 1st time was the 1st semester.Everytime got sick then its really terrible the feeling, not like at home there will be family which will cares about u more, btw i'm single too.Therefore is important to maintain my health to continue to pursue my dreams.Once i felt a sick then everything will be slow down n i still have to finished those delayed job in the future..

Surprise!!

2006-08-02T08:12:00.000+08:00

Today i'm really happy..Happy times unlimited.Can't imagine a freshie gal wil come n talk to me.I has been working in the rag area n not in the dinning hall for the whole day.At night the designer asked me to do sth else in the dining hall where the freshies n seniors are doing rag rush.Not long after i sit there doing my stuffs then she comes n asked wheter there's anything she can help..So stupid of me saying tat no need for help,how blur am I!Luckily after tat she asked again,then tis time i not so stupid anymore..Surprise n Happy tat got freshie will come n talk to me,haha...btw my shirt is full of black paint,damn dirty..she looks like a singaporean in the way she dress n talk.Aftertat only realized tat she's oso a malaysian..business student..somemore is 1987,came singapore to study A-level after form 5?how can it be?only realized tat she took PTS n jumped to primary 5,same as my best friend..well she speaks english,which is quite challenging for me to communicate as my english is loussy.Guess wat,she plays bass guitar,very rare for a gal to play bass guitar,cool..hope tat she wun be bored of chating wif me n hopefully will ask me to be her date for the dating game..hehe..since last year i couldn't find a date n being blind dated in last minute,tis year hopefully can have funs in the game..Peklyn(if i'm not in spelling the her name),appreciate tat u come n chat wif me!!Anyway u wun c this message..haha..

Miracle

2006-04-03T18:31:00.000+08:00

Wah, today really miracle, she went to sit behind me during lecture, never think of she'll consider me at all after my letter, seems like theres some opportunity for me to know her...I was so nervous during the 2 hours lecture, she sitting right behind me, and I dare not turn around to talk to her...

Fate

2006-03-06T03:52:00.000+08:00

It has been bout 1 month my friend introduced a friend of him to me, business school student, from kuan zhong, he said tat she`s the type i like, well, till now still haven got change to meet her, dunno wheter his word is true or not.After few sms, can c tat she`s a good hearted person.Didn`t noe her well much till now, since tat sms communication to start knowing a person is not very healthy.But then now she might switch to NTU, means tat she`ll be here till May..

Stage n stage crew

2006-02-22T00:02:00.001+08:00

Finally the production is over,means tat our stage crew oso dismissed...just got the photos of the production ,when I c the stage n our stage crews,the memories comes all together..The stage is really wonderful,after one month plus hard work and the designer good design,everyone seen it also like the stage,this should be the best gift for our efforts..Being a stage crew is really tuft,but the experience is really memorable n wonderful...maybe i might not join stage crew in the future..but i`ll never forget tis wan..I`ve uploaded the photos in friendster...

Stage n stage crew

2006-02-22T00:02:00.000+08:00

Lucky day

2006-01-22T01:39:00.000+08:00

Today went to xin1 qing2 rong2 ji4,is a national stage song composing competition,i din take part,but i went to watch..I bought two ticket,actually oso wanna date her out,but she dunwan to go,so i went myself..The venue is at Pasir Ris,very far from campus,took 1 hour bus to reach there,straight journey without traffic jam,so far,n then i`m alone in the bus,makes me feel so uncomfortable..Finally i`m there,the ticket is with lucky draw,at 1st i enter then i din plan to put the ticket for the draw,coz dunhave pen wif me,then only after i went out to the gents n re-entry ,then only i put in the ticket for lucky draw.Well,the competition started,is quite a good competition,some composition are very good,the comments i`ll not write here..A good news the 2nd n 3rd prize winner is from NUS,n the 2nd prize winner oso won best performance n best tune,she`s really good.After they all performed,then they started the lucky draw,well,i never hope to win lucky draw,just then they called my name,n got a consolation prize,shoke hand wif singapore education minister,haha...surprise...tats the 1st time in my life won a consolation prize in lucky draw..so i got vouchers plus a artistic comb worth $250(if it is cash then really great ,hehe)...Its really a lot..but some voucher i`ll not use it - toe treatment $25 ....perhaps should give a gal...but there`s a $100 saloon voucher,perhaps i can cut my hair there..hehe...n the comb will keep as a gift..wat a lucky day....

Stress!!!

2006-01-15T16:03:00.000+08:00

These days seems like very black,everything seems not going smooth,and then everythings comes at the same time,loads of studies,hall activities,n her...sienz.....everyday have to face n overcome all these challenge...is tat a test for me,to test my ability on problems solving???Maybe i`ll feel more comfortable by thinking this way...Hopefully these problems will be solve as soon as possible....
Took wan self learning course on9,is about Self Development,talk bout time management,stress management bla bla bla....inside said tat,we have to understand wats our value,need and wants.Our daily life should reflect our value,n these only can archive my completing the needs...huh...i think now my daily life only reflecting 40 % of my value...Poor time management n stress management...Perhaps i should learn to say more "NO" ,do wat i want to n dun care bout others to much...

Invitation

2006-01-14T23:17:00.000+08:00

Today i`ve made my 1st move ,to go after a gal,hmm,elder than me,although she`s oso first year(stpm entry),damn nervous now.Bought ticket for a song composing competition final,n asked her to go..nervous nervous..will she go leh??still got wan week to go..

School mood

2006-01-11T00:01:00.000+08:00

School started liao,new sem,new year and new resolution...Setup a few of aims for this semester and redecorated my pin board,although not very impressive,at least looks better and comfortable.Well,finally got all the textbook required,quite troublesome to find second hand textbook ,have to search on9 and sms each an every person to get those books.But then it worth,i need 5 textbooks for this semester and i manage to find 4 2nd-hand book,from tat,i saved about $40 ,btw the 2nd-hand book is just as the same as new one,maybe just a few highlight which i don't mind.Btw just now discovered something which i haven made full use of in the previous sem which is quite a waste,self learning portal provided by NUS,there are many other knowledge in business,self improvement,computing .... which i can learn from there,is a very good portal to learn things,there are videos and text on the site and i can choose whatever things i wish to learn,but provided it is avaible there.Really feel tat university is the best place in the world,full of resources which u will never able to learn all of them.Perhaps learning and make full use of part of them,is already more than enough...

2006-01-02T23:26:00.000+08:00

Miss u miss u,when will u be back???Shit lo,accidentally in love liao...how leh???

New Year

2006-01-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

Today is another year,2006.This oso means that my second sem of 1st year will start soon.Many plans ahead,but oso have some difficulties on these plans.I wish to go for student exchange programme and minor in business.If i go for either one,that shouldn`t be much problem.For minoring,i just have to study harder.For the SEP(student exchange programme) ,is a bit harder,i need to gather funds and apply(the application is quite tedious).If i wanna go for both,i might not have enough time to clear all my modules in 4 years..Sigh..Things dun always go on the path u wish to or in such an ideal way..always need to be solved...so i`ll going to find my study advisor for some advise..
Oh ya,for the new year,din really celebrated,at night went to china town wif my friend for dinner,the tang1 yuan2 there really nice,should be the 1st food i feel very good in singapore,nice nice,nx time i`ll go to the store to eat again..then after tat walked to Clark Quay,a place beside river ,which full of pubs..Those pubs of coz,for higher level people,so expensive n i dun drink,my friends said tats the most happening clubing place in singapore for now,of coz then there`re many pretty gals who dress very nice..now realize tat pretty gals like to go clubing...then aftertat my friend wanna go to drink,then i went back myself,11.58pm just alight from mrt,when i climbed up to ground level,its already 1200am,so can hear fireworks ...Then aftertat went back to my room,then watch drama n on9..Feel like missing somewan,a malaysian in my hall,which i noe a few days after i was here...hmm...after christmas carol then she went back to Muar...I think my heart already got a place for her now....

1st week of vacation in NUS

2005-12-10T00:38:00.000+08:00

Yeah,vacation started,but now is already 2 weeks gone ,still got about 3 weeks plus left...i dun really need tat much rest in the vacation,since tat i`ve been rest enough for half year waiting to enter the university after my UEC,now feeling very grateful,coz i`ve found back the passion on learning,which have been forgone for sometime(after spm till uec over),even in holiday,i still feel like i wanna study(like i`m mad huh).Besides studying,i oso feel like wanna improve myself,in many ways,musical skills,physical training,n some other skills in academy,there are so many things tat i wanna learn,n i`ll be able to learn in the Uni,so i`ve to plan well...

Well,monday to friday,i`ve a C++ bridging course for nx sem module and hall production stage crew.lets talk bout my bridging course .This is the 1st year electrical engineering department conducting the bridging course,since tat during the previous years many student find hard to cope with the module.The course was taught by a research student,well,i think she is teaching for the 1st time,so cannot expect too much from her..Well the course somehow acts like a guideline or introduction to C++,since I`ve already learned C in last sem,i still have to gone through those things by myself through reading some books,I`ll do it during the weekend.Now realize tat i start loving to program(I find it interesting besides most people find it difficult n dun like the module ,which bring me some advantage).Unfortunately,my friend from jb,who is a 1st year in ee too,dun like the module.Here comes the problem,during the lab he would like to boost me like i`m sort of genius when i`m trying to write a program,as he wouldn`t feel like trying,this make the atmosphere bad.If i were the other student in the lab,listening to such conversation,i'll feel irritated to both of them.Besides,its not a learning attitude.Can`t do anything...too bad...

About the stage crew,its sounds interesting,but it is oso not an easy job...we have to build the stage n help out during the performance..About building the stage,we really build the stage from woods and nails.Its interesting,maybe becoz it is fresh to me,we have to cut steel piles,grind them,then secured them with bolts n nuts,quite interesting...But the working hours is quite long,from 10 to 10pm ,in btw got rest of coz...but still long working hour...

Back home

2005-11-28T00:36:00.000+08:00

Yeah,finally,can come back to home...home sweet home,now only i realize home is the best place out of the world..today slept till 12pm ,when i woke up,got headache,maybe slept too much,after having lunch,continue to sleep till 3.00pm,then my mum woke me up,coz were going out.Today sister gave us a treat,we went to sunway college to fetch her,then proceed to sunway pyramid.Wow,it has been few months since my last appearance in shopping complex,step in shopping mall,saw many pretty gal,very different from those in sinapore,feel like malaysia gal is the best,although those china gals are much more pretty.We 1st went to buy ticket to watch harry potter,my still having headache,quite a long que,n got a bad seating,since tat we didn`t have any ticket booking,third row from the screen.After tat went to secret recepi,still,my sister`s bill,thanks her for today`s entertainment,my favourite.My parents were not used to those food there,ask some strange question,we should bring them out more often,since they`re quite out from our lifestyle..Had a nice dinner,since secret recepi is my favourite restaurant.Since i was still having headache,went to buy panadol,as it`ll be a waste to go in the cinema having headache.Luckily,my headache was relief very soon after i`m in the cinema,hmm,quite ok the movie,Harry Potter,seems like refreshing my memory about the story,interesting.Felt tired after finish watching movie,we went to mamak for supper,since tat cake is not very filling .After we went home,i suddenly think of the letters ,well,letters i wrote to jie hui(1st gal whom i chased in secondary school ),whole pilled of letters there,since had been writing letters to her for wan year more,memories in old days comes back,when i read those letters,those memories still there,but with different feelings.Now i realized tat,i did learnt many things from her,sub-consciously,which i didn`t realize in tat time (my mind only think of how to get closer to her tat time,wat a mistake ..),reading her letter,realized tat her writing is very good,more importantly,she noes how to appreciate,in her letter,she always mentioning things should appreciate,hmm,is true...felt tat sometimes,I care bout myself too much,forget bout her feelings...hmm..another bad things bout me..should correct it...still have half pile of letters..i shall continue in these few days...the days writing letters to her,shall always be a memorable days tat i`ll never forget..

Final Exam Day 1

2005-11-17T02:28:00.000+08:00

Today will be my first final exam,kind of nervous,this might be a measure of wat i`ve learn in the past few months.For the midterm exam which was over,i din really did well and prepare well.Well,I was really distracted during the midterm,in this final,well,the situation is much more better,i understand wat the pace i should have on study,and become more determine and have stronger will.Due to the mistake i`ve made in the 1st month more ,I`ve to work even harder than before to compensate thing which I should study but i didn`t study,although it is tough,but to the least I`ve found the pace.These few week I`ve been working hard,well,hard enough for me to prepare for the final exam,no matter how the exam result will be,I`ll just take it,n wun feel sorry about myself..All the best to my friends,n me of coz who`re taking exam....

Lecture without lt

2005-11-04T19:12:00.000+08:00

Shit Shit Shit....today lecture din c her,then dunno y ,feel a little restless,keep on waiting for her appearance during lecture,hrr,last lecture liao,maybe will not c her in nx sem.who`s she?i oso dunno,a pretty gal,china gal,pretty,supper pretty,everytime lecture will c her...so today din c her,then feel a bit uneasy.....

"Accidentally in love"

2005-10-29T20:20:00.000+08:00

Hmm,wat a nice song,although quite long ago since the song was released,entertaining ,nice , n speak out the voice inside those people like me,who are lonely,n waiting for love,hahaha...actually wat i wanna say is,the song is really nice,creative,frank.....(wait till my volcabulary being enriched enough 1st then i can describe more)...
Talk bout my holiday...very happy tat I`m in the hall production team..means tat i`ll be staying in the hall for whole month semester break(i`ll be going home for one week),tats wat i plan to do so.Hall production is really wat i`m very interested in,I`ve interview for song writer,music director,instrumentalist in the previous round,quite angry bout the unfairness tat those position are dominated by the Rockers(one of the culture groups in hall),so then now I`m in stage crew...from job nature describe,is to built a stage from sketch n doing backstage job during performance,which will be a musical drama,quite fresh n intersting to me...but i might me tiring too coz have to work 12 hours 5 day per week in december,anyway,by staying in hall i can do more things which i tend to and able to do during holiday coz i`ll never have free time during semester.Besides tat,there``ll be chinese orchestra camp,which i joined to learn cello,n the choir i joined oso will be carolyning in a hotel nearby changi airport for wan week...interesting leh..i never celebrate christmas ,as well as singing in front of public...hahaha....never imagine tat i can sing...yeah!!!!!so my holiday will be a enriching wan!!!Looking forward for it...Anyway now i really have to concentrate n work very hard to archieve my target,to get 4.0 in the final,which is A- or B+,if i got it,i`ll really be very happy!!!Now I`m already working hard,perhaps I still can work harder,wat to do is not to waste too much time at unnecessary stuffs....
Feel better after bloging...have to study now....All the best to my friends who are taking final,A-level and Stpm soon!!!

Inconsistant sleeping time

2005-10-25T01:14:00.000+08:00

Yesterday slept at 5am,huh,studied programming and did the tutorial then i arranged some of the files,after tat still cannot sleep,sometimes when u`ll feel very tired but just then u cannot fall asleep,tats the worst feel ever,since tat u`re tired and cannot concentrate to do anything,u have to sleep ,but u can`t sleep,what on earth u should do???Hmm...only can wait till u fall asleep....today even worse,unfortunenately ate something wrong and got stomachache when I was very tired as lack of sleeping.Then at night watch webcast halfway then feel sleepy,so i decided to sleep 1st and then wake up at 3am.But then sleep tilll now i`m awake liao,naturally,not by alarm,i oso dunno y...perhaps my body want me to work hard.....

Missing u....

2005-10-20T00:25:00.000+08:00

I miss u so much leh ,chia ling...final exam is around the corner ,i bet u`re oso working very hard to prepare for the exam,coz c u on9 more frequently ...miss u miss u..!!!U`ll never noe tat i like miss u so much...

Distracted mind

2005-10-16T13:20:00.000+08:00

Hmm...wan more months to final exam,i really have to work as hard as possible so tat i wun get a dissapointed result anymore,maybe still couldn`t compete with the rest,since tat it is so competitive here,but at least i wun feel dissapointed bout myself...whenever i study hard,n then feel tired,tat time i`ll think of gals,feel very lonely when u`re bored n there`s nobody u`ll like to talk to to talk with,lonely....lonely... n lonely......everyday i`ll c her on9 ,most of the time with a away sign ,although everytime she`s there,just like my status is always busy,hmm,..dun dare to msg her,even in msn,since tat long time din c her liao,n then dun have much things related can talk to...how???hrrr....dunwan to think of her....shouldn`t torture myself like tat....sometimes will have a feel like,after 4 years graduated,will i noe somewan who i love,n not single anymore??hmm,feel like it is more likely tat i`ll still be single after 4 years.......sien.....

Late in midnight

2005-10-11T03:38:00.000+08:00

These few days feel quite happy,in terms of study,coz i`ve made full use of my time to study what i ought to and suppose to,which have been left behind due to unproper planning n time management,hope the motivation will continues and i`ll be able to be on pace in every subject very soon.Of coz i`ll hope tat i`ll be ahead of the lecture,then learning will be perfect..

Since that the competition here really challenging ,now i dun really bother to compare my results with others,as long as i work hard enough,satisfied my own target ,then i`ll feel grateful..

Besides,I still can stop thinking of her,chia ling..why i`ll think of her?Since I know that it is almost impossible to success ,as there are so many people looking for her..There`re so many flowers in the garden,y her???Hmm,I dun really understand,maybe should let it be natural,dun think so much,observe people around me,maybe i`ll noe someone not expected to noe...

思念

2005-10-03T01:39:00.000+08:00

怎么会突然想起你呢？其实不然，也许是压抑着的思念吧。相隔数星期没见到你，昨天看见你时，心中有着莫明的欢喜，可是却装做不已为然，也许还不是时候让你知道吧。昨天可是Amcisa 的中秋晚会，虽然我也是成员，可是我并不打算参加这次的活动，更别说表演。我在宿舍里有着自己的世界，没时间参加amcisa的活动，所以这个组织越来越不属于我了。因为想见你，同时希望和你一起演出，我参加了这次的活动。彩排时，我一直装着漫不经心，你可知道我多么的在乎你吗?你说只有在和我合奏时才会紧张出错，是不是意味着你也有着同样的感觉？当你再次的表演时，听着你说序言的声音，顿时勾起高中时歌曲创作比赛的回忆，你的声音，是多么的美妙！！可是我一直都不敢接近你，你有这么多的追求者，何时才轮到我呢？期中考的结果已经不怎理想了，在为自己添烦恼？我能面对吗？最后，也只能在这里默默的发泄。。。

Regain Confidence

2005-09-27T00:53:00.000+08:00

Today was my third war in NUS,maths mid-term exam...1st talk about serious matter...HEHE..out of three exam i`ve gone through,this is the exam tat makes me feel more relief,after the two exam tat i did here...hmm...at least got some mental support ....makes me feel a little more confidence about myself(hmm,i`m confidence on certain things,but still not confidence to noe gals),in academic ,perhaps it`ll be my turning point,now out of 6 modules i`ve in this sem,i only left physics not on pace with the lecture,hmm,it will not be an easy task to accomplish,but i have to face it,n have to conquer it,NO FEAR!!!!Left two more mid-term,both in the same day..Have to work hard,since tat during these few days b4 the exam will oso have to prepare for hall culture night(hehe,i`m performing again!!!)..
okie now talk bout nonsense,sth happened b4,n during the exam.I n my friends were waiting for the exam to start outside the hall,then,i was telling my friend bout a pretty gal in my lecture group,china gal,(since tat it is quite hard to find pretty gal in Engineering),then the exam is free seating,coincidently the gal is seating on the table beside,walau,today i`m so lucky then,but then,my lecturer came,shit,then he chased out all the people seating on the row which the gal was sitting at,huh,this maybe prove tat "happy hours pass by very fast",hmmm,too bad....anyway,it is oso good de,so i can concentrate in the exam,n this time i really did well,Yeah!!although the paper is quite easy,but the fact is i still did well!!!Yeah!!!Seems like i c light out of the canopy of darkness..haha..talk cork...

Stress....

2005-09-24T20:29:00.000+08:00

Hmm...two mid-term just over,died cham cham.....a little discourage...1st died was physics,15 multiple choices question in wan hour,so complex the question ,how to finish leh,somemore even got enough time,i oso cannot do all the quesiton....aih... then today was c programming,i did prepare well for the exam,got 90 % confidence to do well in the exam,but then the paper come out a bit hard,n then my time estimation not good,left out last 3 question,n then the fact is tat the question i left out was easy question...wat to say??Try again next time,perhaps try harder....i wanna work hard ,play hard,then care bout my health too..dunwan to fall a sick anymore,coz if sick,perhaps i cannot do so many things.....
Anyway,today oso happy de,today started to learn cello,hmm,nice nice cello,i love it,cello can be my wife liao,if i dun have any next time...so sound so nice...n then..the fact is tat the sound come out from my hand(hehe although still beginner)..but at least now i`ve already steped out my 1st step..i believe i can play better in the future....
Sien sien sien,...so many pretty gals around...but seems so far away....lonely.....

Back in Singapore

2005-09-21T15:45:00.000+08:00

came home on sunday morning,reached kl at 3pm something,then the 1st thing i did was eating roti canai n nasi bryani with my mum,since i din eat anything from tat day morning 6am,as just brought enough money to travel back,wat a big mistake,anyway,the bus trip was quite nice,comfortable,almost slept 80% during the trip.The 2nd thing i did was shopping in carrefour,hmm,relepnish some goods needed in singapore.So ,at night,wasted quite a lot of time,din study much,as home sweet home,i enjoyed more than i study at home.2nd day then i went to sign agreement n low yat to shop.bought a nice speaker(which bring me some difficulties when i traveled to singapore).B4 tat planned to but train ticket,but then realized tat it was much more expensive than bus,n then slower,so i took bus.Imagine,carrying the speaker all the way to singapore,during bus trip still ok,no need to carry myself,then after i reached custom,troubles come,1st thing i`ve to worry is the duty,luckily the custom din charge duty for my speaker,then the coming problem is the carrying.the speakers weight 8kg ++,n in my luggage got a 5kg physics textbook(made a big mistake to bring tat back as i din touch the book in m`sia),then plus my laptop n etc,its damn heavy,i cannot walk more than 30m with those things,so have to walk n stop...the worst thing is,the bus stop at singapore at a place very far from my hostel,n it`s quite a distance to mrt station.Without those luggage,shouldn`t be any problem,but with the luggage,then.....as i insist not to take cab,so i did some "gym" all the way back to hostel...anyway,the i still like the speaker,although it is not wise to carry all the way here..
Hmm ,bout the holiday,shit,mid-term break becomes study week,as the mid term exam is right after the holiday.I`ve wasted 2 days time in terms of study in Kl,so ,have to work even harder,although the zhou gong keep on bothering me.Anyway,I`ll stay away from u zhou gong!!!

mixing feelings

2005-09-14T01:23:00.000+08:00

Mid term break is coming,should be a good news,but the thing is it only last for 5 days,wat lar,the university so stingy,I shouldn`t be going back to M`sia during this term break,coz its too short n then right after the term break will be mid term exam,huh,5 exams have to go through,but then i`ve to settle my tuition grant agreement,fix my spec,n then maybe buy some stuffs,cut hair,n eat roti canai(although some are optional,but since i`m back,y not?).So i`ll be back most probaly on sunday,then going here in tues,wasted quite a lot of time leh,but,wat to do?
Everyday have to study study n study,since tat i still have to catch up lectures n tutorials,so i have to keep on the motivation to study.
Hmm,realize wan thing,since tat i`m here,the only chong hwa classmate in nus out of 4 i still got contact with is chia ling(alcohol),more pretty liao,coz long hair.Quite a strange phenomenon,last time at school dun really talk to each other,only talk during competition or contest,then now different.She`s quite a good friend to me in some sense,as she`s enthusiatic in music,various sort of music,so i`ll feel more likely to talk bout those things with her,n then the other reason is tat we`ve been classmate for few year.

Sick Sick Sick

2005-09-05T02:14:00.000+08:00

Stupid flu,got since few weeks ago n then it last till now,Shit!!!!!Make me tired n now is the time i wanna accelerate my study speed,urghrhhhhghhhhhhh!!!!!!!I`ll conquer u!!!!flu!!!!Soon u`ll lose,n i`ll get rid of u!!!!!!!!!

Happy M`sia Birthday

2005-08-31T00:08:00.000+08:00

Today is national day,anyway here in singapore,NUS,my hall,nobody celebrating,just in msn,as our celebration will be delayed,so to show patriot, i`ll put m`sian flag in msn for till 1st sept.
Tats all...Happy National Day.....

Heavy workload

2005-08-27T02:09:00.000+08:00

Hmm..now i found out tat there`re so many things u can do,join,learn,experience in university,but the cruel truth is u can`t do everything u might wan to do,coz u wun have enough time for every single thing u like,so u have to put away,or put aside something,or not surely will be overwhelm.Lets say in academic,for every module,the textbook is damn thick(n expensive too),but hose book are really good,but the problem is u wun have time to go through in detail,so wat can do just follow the lecture slide n tutorial.It is possible for me to go through in detail,but after then i`ll become bookworm(or phantom which never show in the hall),i dun think it`s a wise choice.And then the university`s english learning resources oso quite many,the centre got lots of magazine ,movie ,n books for writing skill learning,seems so useful,i wish i`ll make use of it,but perhaps i only got time in holiday..And the tutorial,so many tutorials,I have to finish most of them in this weekend,huh,have to do everything by ur own will,no one will force u,n i can slack,just tat i`ve to pay after tat.Hall activities is part of the reason i`ve to finish work in this weekend,coz now inter-block game,various sports games are going on,so evening after lecture,then activities till 9 or 10pm,then after tat is my study time,till 2 or 3am,after 3 then i really cannot concentrate liao..So i`ll not be joining every sports games next week,maybe one or two out of 3,at least show my face in some sports,so tat i wun be consider as "phantom".The games are fun,but really time consuming.The good thing is now i start to get the picture of daily studies,later i`ll got the whole thing n perhaps i`ll got a systematic plan btw studies n activities..

Tomorow will have a concert call "Timeless Classic",its one of the four performance of NUS centennial celebration,form of symphony orchestra,choir,wind symphony,piano essemble,n guitar club.I`ll be going there,n then hopefully will be successful...Should be a intersting performance,n then the price still ok,$8,n the theater is really great..

Have to study liao..

2005-08-14T22:33:00.000+08:00

Semester "finally" started(although it started two weeks ago but the lecture dun really start),so i have to start studying liao,its the end of the orientation,but for hall,our inter block game,which is a sports competition between every block in the hall,n then next week will be the audition for those cultural groups in hall,haha,i signed up for choir,accapella,inspire(song composing),n maybe rockers,hopefully i can get in those groups.bz bz n bz....have to find the balance btw hall life n study..Anyway,today i`ve made a first move to study liao,morning went to library to print note,as my notebook still not ready yet!!!at 1st went to business library,its cheaper there,4cents(SGD),but the computer without powerpoint,so some notes cannot print out,so i have to walk to central library,quite far ,tooks bout 10 min.Later on then went for lunch,food here its ok la,but i missed roti canai in m`sia,roti here is called prata,but its smaller n thicker,not so nice,the 1st thing i wanna do when i`m back is eat at mamak .afternoon then i study in business library,quite nice leh studying there,coz got a-cond,so hot in the room,but just then the book is very thick ,damn heavy,i have to carry dictionary too,as the hall study room is open after 5pm,so the nearest library which i can walk there is bz library.Hmm,lazy to crap liao,..zzzzzz....

New life,New World

2005-08-02T21:07:00.000+08:00

Well,i`m just back from NUS Flag day,being standing beside road asking for donation from morning 7am till late afternoon.But of coz i`m not so hardworking ,in the afternoon we together went window shopping around as we`re really tired,then rest in the library(s`pore got so many libraries),so the working time,should be 4-5 hours ,then when i was back in hall,i sleep straight away.
Should be my 1st post since i`m here in singapore,went through bout 2 weeks orientation,its very tiring,instead,its really fun,precious experience.If wanna write down,it`ll takes 10 pages more,so i just summary out.
1st day here,dunno where to stay,then asked the cab,n then at last stayed at chinatown.
2nd day here,checked in the hall,n then my AMCISA(chinese independent high school assocition)senior bring me along to handle some procedures,n then buy some goods,thanx her so much.
3rd day,joined amcisa camp,oso dun remember so much,i only remember,its fun.
4th day,oso in amcisa camp,still,its fun..
5th day,last day in amcisa camp,we spent whole day in Sentosa,quite a memorable night..
6th day,orientation for international student,by hall,fun oso..
then from 25th onwards,till now we have orientation..during this time we play lots of games,cheers n funs,i never learned so many cheers in my life,like going mad..n then in the orientation we oso have dating game,we have to date for seniors from other block(our hall got 5 blocks),so have to find wan target,n then do sth else for her to win her as date in formal dinner,huh,till now still dun have target ,i`ll find wan,since tat its quite late now..
For the Uni,we have to bid for our modules in each sem,so its just like share market,each module have vaccancies,n lowest highest bid point,n then we have to bid for the module we want,but for engineering 1st year we are protected,so some modules already allocated for us,but still i have to bid for some..
The hall,I really feel tat i`m very lucky coz i got this hall,in hall,i can experience campus life,it is a totally different thing btw staying in hall and the rest,coz hall,is part of our identity in uni,n hall,we can noe various friend,from any part of the world,its really interesting,now i feel proud of my hall n my Uni,its just a starting,hopefully i`m not wrong...
I`ll just stop here,perhaps the journey will continue.....c ya...

NUS Here i come !!!

2005-07-16T20:36:00.000+08:00

Wahaha,Two hours later,i`ll be on my way to S`pore,very excited besides little nervous,so long I`ve been waiting..So c ya,M`sia,n friends in M`sia..

3D2N Redang trip

2005-07-07T00:11:00.000+08:00

Day 1,
Departed from putra bus station,after waiting for wan hour,the bus finally arrived,1st time take intercity bus,quite excited leh,but then when i`m in the bus n the bas departed,the bus suddenly stopped at the bus terminal exit,how fortunate i`m,the bus broke down even haven start the journey,they tried to fix it,but at last their effort didn`t work out,so they rent a bas persiaran n continue the journey,n the bus trip was delayed 2 hours.Since tat the departure time was delayed.the bus was like a mad cow,speeding all the way to kuala terrengganu.Morever,it was midnight,the bus even can speed in kampung roads,n u guess how much time does the bus took to reach kuala terrengganu??Just 6 hours,crazy,even by car oso not so fast.When reached K.T.,the travel agent fetched us to the tourist centre,which there are chairs,bathroom for us to rest,so we waited there until 8pm,the resort`s bus came to pick us up and fetch us to jetty,n there we took wan hour ferry to redang.Kinda shocked to c so many tourist there,I thought this period is low peak,but in contrast there are so many U students there,maybe holiday.So 1st day reach there,have to get used to the environment 1st,somemore i went wif my mum,kinda strange there,coz there 98% group students or couples.After lunch,I took the 1st snorkeling trip,to the marine park,should be the best place to snorkel,since tat i`ve some experience in Langkawi ,i got used to the mask liao,but just the life jacket,hurts my shoulder,coz the jacket floats in water,n it scratches the skin ,n then it hurts,so i`ve find out wan way to encounter this problem,where t-shirt to snorkel.The corals n fish there are really wonderful,dunno how to describe,since tat my english not good,so when u reach there u`ll noe..
And then got wan thing I find out that,i`ve to practise more in diving,as diving n swimming is different,so tat next time i just rent the fins,can dive inside to touch those corals,rather than just float on the surface,becoz when u`re wearing life jacket,u can`t dive..At night,dun have activities liao,just walk around wif mum ,i went to the ktv room,but since tat i`m alone,dun dare to sing in front so many people,so i slept at 11pm
2day,
Woke up 5.30am to c the sunrise,haha,should be the 1st time success to wake up so early since gratuated,waited wan hour,the sky only gradually turn bright,but the sunrise not very clear,as there are much clouds there,or maybe blocked by other islands,so i just can c part of the sunrise.This day,i`ve got used to the island liao,n the weather was just as good as the weather report i`d read b4 going redang.After breakfast,i had my 2nd snorkeling trip,this time is a bit different,the coral area dun have beach, n we have to jump into the sea from boat,like commiting suicide,but quite shuang de,this area is deeper than the marine park,the coral quite nice,but fishes there not as much as the marine park.This time i took of the life jacket n tried to dive under the sea to take photo,but then i wasn`t used to the snorkeling mask when diving,so only can dive for a very short period,so i gonna dive more in swimming pool 1st,as in the sea it`ll be harder to swim or dive.In the afternoon,still snorkeling,at another place,P.kerrangga,the snorkeling area is at the sea between two island in the middle of the sea,so we can c seagulls there,n this place is very beautiful the corals n fishes,a little different from the marine park,but it has its own beauty..huh,after 3 times snorkeling,my shoulder really hurts,but i still insisted to finish 3 snorkeling trip,as it is really fantastic,besides i`ve paid for tat.In the evening,i went to canoe myself,since tat my mum dun dare to canoe.Quite hard to get into the canoe myself,the 1st time i got in,the canoe overturn,n i have to pour out the water inside b4 my 2nd try,as i got in the canoe,everthing being easy,can c the island`s view from the sea,n then i found out sth i might not seen if not with the canoe,nearby the rocks there there`re various species of crabs around there finding food,like in National Georgraphy,haha,so happy to c tat.And then walking along the beach,can c many lenglui(s) in bikini,think of wanna relax there ,but i think tat burden my heart more for seing so many sexy lenglui..At night,i went to ktv again,this time nobody there,as i`m the 1st person there,so i can sing as i wan,but later there`re people coming in,but i still dare to sing ,haha,dunno y i got such confidence liao,maybe my face growed thicker liao..After ktv,walked around the beach n drank fresh coconut,coconut n beach=perfect.As i dun have gf or friends around,no mean to wonder around at night,so again i slept at 11..
3rd day,
woke up 5.30 again,hope to c the full view of the sunrise,but again blocked by clouds,but this time i had brought my camera n took some photos,too bad dun have digi cam,or not i can take photo as much as i can.checked out at 10.30,left at 11 n then reach the jetty at 12.bout 1.30,we reached bus station n our bus would depart at 2.30.This time,again the bus got some problem,n they took bout half hour more to fix it.As the ticket was booked by the resort,we can`t choose the bus company.Actually their prices are about same,just the bus are different.This time the bus although called "xxx Express",but it took many stops on the way to kl,even stopped at kuantan for half hour to pickup customers,n then i reached kl at 10.50pm,huh,eight hours more,so slow..
Anyway,redang is really wonderful,I wish visit there again in the future,wif whole group of friends or in wan pair,as the place suites friends n couples more...

Shock

2005-07-02T00:30:00.000+08:00

Just now i logged in into the Hostel Management System again,shocked to c tat my application status was changed form "accepted" to "under review" again,wat on earth happening??So i checked my mail to c whether there`re mail from NUS,only realized there aren`t double room in the hall i applied for but there was an error in the application system,so i`ll be allocated in a single room.Should be a good news to me,since tat i prefer my own private room n no need to worry bout my belongings..But then the fees will be higher now..Should not be any problem gua,just then the application status there still make me confuse,although they`ve informed me by mail,maybe still haven update the system..what a shock!!!huh!!!Make me got sth to worry about in my trip,hope tat they reply my mail today,n then i can put aside everything,but even not,i oso have to put aside,coz trip is to enjoy n relaxe...alar..frustrated...tonight can`t sleep liao....

Redang,here i come.....

2005-06-30T17:32:00.000+08:00

啦...啦...啦...
啦...啦...啦...
我要你陪着我
看着那海龟水中游
慢慢的趴在沙滩上
数着浪花一朵朵.....
Yeah!!!!Finally,i can go Redang liao...Should be going there few weeks earlier,due to some problem,can`t go with friends,so now i`m going with my mum..Today I got all things settled,the booking,bus ticket...I can`t wait for the moment anymore...Yesterday i called the tour agent,they said this sat all rooms are fully booked,then today i called again,they said monday got,so i go on monday..n then i got all my salary liao,got little surprise,more than expected,yeah!!c money than i happy liao..afternoon took ktm from subang to putra station,then went to buy bus ticket,din buy intercity bus ticket b4,so i walk around,look at those bus de picture,actually their price not much different,n almost every bus company got bus to K.terrengganu,so I just c which bus new,nice n luxury,then i choose tat wan,at last I bought Konsortum Bus ticket,should be comfortable gua...although my body is here,but now my soul is at redang liao!!!!!

Idle ,Idle...,Idle.....

2005-06-24T23:47:00.000+08:00

Alar,.....sleeping all the time,dunno y,seems like kena some bacteria,forgotten wats the name liao,used to learn in bio last year,makes me keep on sleep n sleep,doing nth,like bangkai bernyawa...so sien....

Idle

2005-06-18T23:22:00.000+08:00

YEah!!!NUS ,Here i come.....wan month more to go..
Still got some stuffs to handle,photo,medical checkup,n then later gonna shops for food...huh,gonna spend much money leh...now not de big problem,coz many procedures only can be settle when reach there..So i`ve to settle down wat i can do now 1st..I`m busy??Not really,just feel like very tired..maybe nth to do whole day,..so just eat n sleep...n then exercise n on9 of coz...
Got a good news,there`ll be wan more classmate going NUS,guess who,alcohol..quite suprise to noe tat she`s going there,studying pyschology,i dun have to worry tat i`ll got any mental illness liao,haha,i`ve two chong hwa friends studying pyschology there,n then their faculty is just beside engineering...yeah..n then alcohol...quite happy to noe tat she`s going..at least got wan friend with same interest..yeah!!But now think of those procedures have to handle when reach there,little worry,but those shouldn`t much problem,everywan going there have to settle the same things...
Nowadays gonna eat more,coz foods in singapore expensive n not delicious,so,gonna eat as much here...
I`ve been waiting for half years more liao,yeah,my idle life will end up soon,now comes the time to fly my dreams(y dream with s leh,coz i got many many dreams,tamak leh,e.g. earn much money,learn cello n piano,..........................),yeah!!!!!Gonna countdown....

After resigned

2005-06-09T22:46:00.000+08:00

Haha,should be sunday was my last day,but i din go to work tat day as my mum dun feel quite well,besides i oso dun feel like wanna work anymore,so i simply told them tat i was sick..
Yeah!!!Now i`m totally free ,can do wat i wan,in anytime,..no need to bond work,time anymore..i`ll still have wan month freedom on tat..anyway,its oso quite bored suddenly everything slow down so much,as my previous job was quite a busy job,can be very busy in weekend n public holiday,in this point,its has a good job nature,..just those in-charge,aih,suan liao,not my pasal anymore...so now,everyday i sleep more than ten hours,when i feel sleepy,i`ll just sleep,..sometimes play instruments,hmm,out of 3 instruments i noe,i love piano most now,although cello will always be my dream,coz guitar,more n more dun like liao,n dizi,a problem,..too loud the amplitude,harm my ears quite much,so practised more n more little...dun feel like wanna gave up the instrument,as it`ve been accompany me for so many years,n i love chinese orchestra..so i`ll just stuck some tissue into my ears b4 practise...
Another good news,..she`s back!!!at last i sms her..n only noe tat she came back not on 3 of june but 17th of may,coz she applied to come back earlier to study,alar..she said she went my shop to find me b4,but i wasn`t there,too bad,anyway,tats the fate..coz i oso met many friends unexpectedly when i was working ..she`s studying a-level at tar,little shocked tat she took further maths instead of just taking maths as she plan to study actuary science..quite a good choice..hehe..very happy to hear from her again..

Tomorow will be my last day..Yeah!!!

2005-06-04T20:42:00.000+08:00

Shit!!!Wat a damn company!!!Damn Damn Damn!!!B4 i left still gonna compensate the uniform at 40% price ,wat la,so kedekut,everyday help the company earn so much money,really hap pok,luckily i`ll not work whole life for such job,pity my colleague,some of them already stop studying n then gonna start working even without diploma cert.,tats the road they`ve choosen,just can wish them good luck,but to my incharges,curse them,huh!!!Today crazy,whole midvalley going crazy,so crowded ,like no need money buy things,luckily today be cashier din short money,huh,even though i let customer wait oso wun let money short,short money i rugi,gonna pay back,customer runaway,nvm,i no rugi,company rugi,n tat dun mean anything actually,coz wan customer just 0.001% profit relative to overall profit,n then company earn money,not me,besides company so hap pok,huh!!Should be i`ve already resigned at 31,but they asked me to stay till sunday,huh,shouldn`t be so good hearted,but they`re lack of staff now,very lack tat kind,so,now they scare wan day i dun come,haha,lets c,anyway i still will maintain my own pricip,i`ll always keep my words.Hey,since when i become so good hearted liao,really suspect is tat me??
Anyway,wan day more,i`ll stand for wan more day,n then i`ll enjoy my life,aftertat step in Uni,yes!!!wan month more,i`ve been waiting so eagerly for half year liao..Somemore my best friend come back liao,yeah!!!

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2005-05-14T20:36:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my offday,b4 tat found friends to redbox sing k,huh,wan fang4 fei ji the day b4 n then the other wan fang fei ji wan hour b4,wat la,huh,at last only me n the other ma lat lou walk around sg.wang area..just walk around two hours more then feel very sien liao,he dunwan to eat lunch,so i bring him to lrt then i went to pt.street myself,i prefer to walk alone than walking with somewan not too close,as i always change my mind,n i can go to anywhere i like,maybe be tats the "side effect" after being alone for sometimes after graduated,i`ve already learned to be lonely liao..i had some nafsu to eat Secret Recepi tat time,walking around petaling street,keep on thinking where`s the shop??Finally only i think of the place,nearby Hong Kong bank there`s a new Secret recepi,how could i forget the place as i used to pass by the place after school last time to change bus..so i went in the shop,n ordered two slice of cake n wan slice of apple pie,n then a vanila latte,the waitress seems shock as when i said i`m eating myself n asked me wheter i was changing my diet,dunno tat i like cakes there so much..so i stayed there for wan hour more,sambil eating sambil reading there,kinda enjoy,i`m thinking of if there`s a secret recepi at highland like Fraser`s hill with cold wheter,then it can be perfect..Anyway that meal cost me twenty more,i only afford to eat once a month..
In the evening,i went to commanwealth park nearby my house with my mum,a park which i like very much oso,seems like many people jogging there,n then oso not lack of pretty gals,so sambil walking around with my mum i sambil watch lenglui around..if go there at night is the best,but i dun dare to go alone as there maybe perompak there..
Today i started work in quite a happy mood,but few incident makes me mad after tat.First is i`ve request to off on 21 as i`ll have a gathering few weeks ago,n i oso reminded the incharge few days ago,n today she told me tat she`ve forgotten bout tat,what a good excuse,huh,n she herself will have five days anual leave next week,shit!!!Crazy,is tat the way to respect a staff,lets c,i can just take mc tat day n off for tat day,she can`t do anything on me,n i`ll never give co-operation next time,since tat without the job i wun die,n i`ve already wanna resign soon..lets c..no wander staffs who works previously said that they are happy with those previous in-charge but not the current..

Offday

2005-05-06T14:19:00.000+08:00

Alar,at last got my offday liao,it has been two weeks since my last offday on last monday,"thanks" for the stupid senior who arranged the schedule.Now i feel more n more happy liao,coz it is more n more close to the date university start,in contrast,i feel more n more unlikely to work in the shop,anyway i`ll stand still 1st of 2nd week of june,just putting some hope maybe can meet somewan back.
And then jin ro,suprised tat u`ll left a msg here,i only noticed tat accidentally after sometimes,coz i think nobody left any msg here..thank you so much..u too must take care urself..all de best..n cheer up..besides wat happen to ur blog,actually i oso visit ur blog sometimes..but now seems like ur blog got some problem?Coz when type the url just a blank page appears?
Yesterday i went to tower record listen cd coz there were still much time left for me to start work when i reached midvalley..accidentally listened a Cd named Il Divo,a male opera singing group whom i totally dunno bout them ,then heard a song in the cd "mama",very very very touching,then after tat i bought the cd,seems like crazy to buy cd like tat,n then it has been the 1st time for me to buy original cd since many many years ago(ps:as classical/opera cd u wun get any pirate cd),so,no choice,anyway,tats a very nice cd,...

Half day

2005-04-27T19:26:00.000+08:00

Today my working shift is half day,means tat i only have to work 4 hours.After working ,its bout 2.30,b4 tat planned to buy some dvd at sg.wang,as 3 for 10,i can watch 3 movies instead of 1 in cinema by tat,but maybe becoz the god oso support original,when i step out of midvalley north court entrance,the sky was dark,gesture of raining,so i changed my mind to watch movie alone,as too late for me to find friends out.I watched Sahara,so lucky to get a back middle seat,haha,on my left is wan malay gal oso watching alone,seems like i`m not the only wan who watch movie alone..the movie not so suprising,just normal,heroism kind,anyway,i oso din aspect much from tat,just sort of entertainment..after tat then just went home..

There`s another old song i like now very much,sing by liu ruo yin n guang liang,very nice song,the lyrics sounds stupid,but just like me,haha,little bit stupid...still got wan months more for me to wait...

我等你

不做考虑也没半点犹豫,

我就说了这一句我等你.

你眼中闪过了一些压抑,

更多的是怀疑,所以你可以离去.

不相信你还会回心转意,

是我任性才决定要等你,

我眼中的泪没掉过一滴,

只是随你背影,慢慢倒流进心里.

我等你,半年为期,逾期就狠狠把你忘记,

不止是伤心的还包括一切甜蜜.

要等你,要证明自己我可以纵容你在心里,

也可以当你只是路过的人而已.

不相信你还会回心转意,

是我任性才决定要等你,

我眼中的泪没掉过一滴,

只是随你背影,慢慢倒流进心里底.

我等你,半年为期,逾期就狠狠把你忘记,

不止是伤心的还包括一切甜蜜.

要等你,要证明自己我可以纵容你在心里,

也可以当你只是路过的人而已.

我等你,半年为期,逾期就狠狠把你忘记,

你应该已经和她公开在一起.

要等你,要证明自己我可以纵容你在心里,

也可以当你只是路过的人而已.

爱到痛自己才需要一段等你的限期,来遗忘自己.

Erghhhhhh

2005-04-25T00:33:00.000+08:00

Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Argggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Huh!!!!Sien until i fat mou liao......Why the times always go so slow when u wan it to go fast??????
Feel like wanna go to beach n scream,but as long as there isn`t any beach at kl,so i scream here,at least better then scream somewhere else make people feel like i`m crazy..
1st is my job...Feel more n more tiring of serving customer everyday...As the shop emphasize much on customer service,have to greet every customer when they comes in,smile,n then push sales,....although i dun really wanna smile to them,arghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I wanna work,but dunwanna always wanna push sales,greeting is ok to me,but i hate pushing sales,coz me myself hate promoter who push sales on me,n now i have to be like tat....Besides,in this month quite a few accident happens in my shop,lost money,lost stock...Although those incidents does not happen on myself,but just feel like cannot trust anywan in the shop,as to protect sendiri..there must be somewan else in the shop got problem,stupid,makes the shop atmosphere not so good now...
2nd things,felt like i still dunwan to forget hui leng,although its nearly 2 months she went ns,n its so long since the last msg she`d replied..thinking of call her,but at last still din take any action,coz i dunwan myself to get hurt anymore,as i just noe her few weeks,although met her two months...just a dream...maybe...just wait until she comes back,then i`ll forget her,.....am i still putting some hope on her???I oso dunno,.....just feel sad evertime waiting for last train at midvalley ktm station...

Idle

2005-04-17T00:18:00.000+08:00

Wah..Nowadays i seems like becoming "night ghost" liao,coz yam cha one or two days every week at night 12.00 like tat..always got scolded b4 i go..although it`s just mamak nearby..coz nowadays if work noon ,10.30 only end work,n then gonna wait ktm last train 10.58,after reached home is 11.25 earliest,so i can only yam cha at 12..coz sometimes working really sien,gonna find friends out chat,so i always yam cha wif a friend oso working at midvalley,last time different class,oso not very sook,but now more sook,coz both working same place n live nearby,of coz,he`s guy,or not where can yam cha so late..sien arh..................................

Purpose of life

2005-04-09T00:59:00.000+08:00

Today my best friend asked me wat is purpose of life,wat is purpose of life?????
I`m sure this qustion dun have exact answer,to me,maybe just to live,or more accurately,to live a happy life,doing wat i hope to do,like to do...Am i happy now??Not really,although now quite free,nth to bz about n just waiting..Besides,felt quite lonely,best friend still at singapore,although still got many friends,but mostly not so close,some close but still not the kind of friends heart to heart..so wun think of find them out purposely,maybe just occasionally...last week think of find an old friend out gathering,sheau ming,old classmate since form two,noe her in icq although in the same class,long time din contact her,although we used to chat every weekend since we noe..but tat day called her out,still felt like very dissapointed,still kinda ai4 mu4 xu1 rong2 she`ve changed to,aih...,not the good friend i noe last time anymore...environment maybe will change one person...
Besides,dunno y i`m still writing the blog...maybe too lonely,or maybe after writing here will feel better...or maybe someway of contact wif somewan...U still remember the sms test u sent me last time?Wat will i think of if think of u?i`ve choosed sky...N then the test answer is quite accurate...a person who helps to solve problems..U`re wan of the best friend i treassure very much,although our relationship starts on9..all de best in ur stpm..

Learn To Be Lonely
Child of the wilderness
Born into emptiness
Learn to be lonely
Learn to find your way in darkness
Who will be there for you
Comfort and care for you
Learn to be lonely
Learn to be your one companion
Never dreamed out in the world
There are arms to hold you?
You've always known
Your heart was on its own
So laugh in your loneliness
Child of the wilderness
Learn to be lonely
Learn how to love life that is lived alone
Learn to be lonely life can be lived life can be loved Alone.

Lyrics adapted from The phantom of the opera

Late night..

2005-04-05T00:51:00.000+08:00

Today,in the morning,my mood is quite good,went to the optical shop n find a new spec,a spec. i pay wif money i earned myself,quite happy wif tat,coz b4 tat my spec all are cheap wan and not so good.But actually i dun like spec n never like to be short sighted,to me my eye is the best part of my whole body,n i never like my eyes to be block by anything,even though eye glasses is transparent,n never light to c things clearly only through lens..stupid,tats y now i dun play computer games anymore..Anyway,getting a better spec will let me feel more comfortable..
Today should be my 4th day as a cashier in the shop,but today my "big sister",every new staff will have a senior to look after went back early.In the shop got 3 senior,a guy,seems like 25 or 26 like tat,dun quite like him,n then my "big sister" n the other senior,today only the guy senior there,n to be he`s really like an idiot,never believe the ability of others,as if i`m dummy,although maybe he is b4 tat..N then not willing to teach..Hey man,u`re really testing my patience,for ur age,working for so many years liao,still just a sales assistant,not being promoted,n u really looks like a dummies..For your performance,n ability,after few years u still are a promoter,wun be promoted,n ur life will ends up like tat..Really hate such kind of person..
Huh!!I`ve finish fa xie here..Of coz i wun let such person make me not happy of working,as other staffs there are just nice..
Another things i dun like now is the period waiting for ktm when working noon shift.In this shop,working noon shift,we start work late,but oso end work late.Normally most of the shops end work at 10,but for us we end at 10.30,so i have to wait for the last train which will arrive at 10.58,so have to wait 20 minutes more,n the train mostly will be delayed..Tat time i`m already exhausted,so just sit on the stairs waiting for the train..Aih!!!whenever i`m alone at midvalley ktm station at night waiting for train,i`ll think of her,the gal i used to c almost everyday in last jan n feb..not much hope to meet her again..as she din reply me for long time..two months more for her ns..Hope she enjoys the ns...

offday

2005-04-01T23:38:00.000+08:00

Today offday,yeah!!Can rest a bit liao...
Nowadays working better liao,coz most of the time got stuff to do,the time will pass faster ,n then i wun be so sien..But now i hope most is the U faster faster start,i`m so eager so step in to U instead of wasting time to be promoter everyday doing routine meaningless..the benifits just i know some friends,hmm,n then hui leng,n then c more lenglui,n then learned something not very useful...n then now i realized sth,i`ve almost put aside my plan to read reader`s digest always for few months liao..shit!!how can i compete wif those singaporian who like to use those difficult words always..must find somemore motivation to force me to use english more..,maybe blog more,but using proper english..

miss u

2005-03-21T21:50:00.000+08:00

Arrrgggghhh...............Why always think of her de,i dun like the feel of missing somewan,so torturing.....N then even worse can`t contact her since tat the sms mostly will be received 2nd day or few days after i sent,huh,how to contact...!!!!!Sms already like tat,dunno wat will be if i call...
Aih aih aih,luckily today i start working liao,a bit crazy of me,keep on ironing cloths from the moment i start work,other staffs must think tat i`m crazy...but tats the way to keep myself not to think of her...stupid la me...n then everyday listen tong hua...so gan3 dong4...
besides i oso always listen to The Phantom of the Opera de soundtracks,inside got wan song "Learn to Be Lonely" n then "Think Of Me" n then "All I ask of you"...so touching...
arrrgggghhh.........still got little miss her,although fa xie4 so many nonsense here...
yyyyyyy,i`ll got impressed by somewan in such situation,????N then i only noe her not very long..
But i still can`t deny tat i`m missing her,can`t wait tat the stupid ns faster over...

Untitled

2005-03-19T23:48:00.000+08:00

Yesterday got my job at last,really hard to find a good job huh.Good salary de expected u to work for long time n then need two times interview,low salary de i dun like,aih,stupid..
went to midvalley find job in the morning,no result,n then in afternoon went to times square to find,but still got many shops not open yet,n then damn big n those roads so messy,i dun like times square,so i walked to sg.wang,then i found giordano,then interviewed at the hq at bb,n then surprisingly i got the job n then working at midvalley,yeah,tats where i wanna work..but the salary,nth different with the previous,suan liao,better than staying at home fat mou...so i`ll gonna work monday onwards..

today very very happy leh,she replied my sms liao,stupid sarawak there line so cha,wanna sms oso hard,later better go buy std card call her,coz sms then she will only received on second day,how to chat like tat..stupid ns..such a great obstacle for me to get close to her..huh!!!N then wasting time,from wat i noe they just marching everyday,stupid!!!
Take care ya,miss u!!

思念

2005-03-13T22:58:00.000+08:00

今早不知道是思念的关系。。六点多就醒了，之后就send了封sms给她。。不知是她不想回复，还是要上机了。。过后我又睡着了。再次起身后心情好多了，脑海里总算可以暂时把她阁下。。过后上网察寻新大，南大的资料。。问了很多人，还是很难做决择。。最终和哥哥在南大的朋友聊天，终于做出决定，南大，不久后我会是你们的一分子。。
午觉后，又想起了她。。怎么会一直想着她？？看来我真的是情非得已了..
犹豫了很久,最后还是鼓起勇气打了通电话给她,这还是我第一次用手机打长途电话,反正之前剩下的credit平时都不会怎么用到..电话接通了,原来她还没到,正在sibu等着转机..不只要和她说什么..气氛不是太好..过后电话线路有问题就断线了..唯有sms..总算是放心了知道你到了sarawak..
你有男朋友了吗?一直都不敢开口问..希望没有吧..那我还有希望..有机会我一定要问问看..
这时间你应该要睡了吧..晚安..
三个月..我会等你回来的..一定..

慧玲: 一帆风顺

2005-03-13T00:41:00.000+08:00

嗯。。今天早上六点你将去国民服役了。。真的很舍不得你。。尽情的享受三个月的渡假吧，我会默默的祝福你的。。今天你终于肯接电话了。。听见你的声音真的很高兴，虽然感觉上你有些担心。。放心吧。。国民服务罢了。。
你真的很特别。。若我还在Midvalley工作，放工后我不会再四处望了，因为相信ktm车站在这三个月内不会有那么特别,肢体语言那么优美的人能吸引住我的眼光。。
一路顺风。。三个月后再见。。

p/s:你应该不会知道这个Post的存在吧，因为你不爱上网。。之所以我会把对你的感觉写在这里。。

5 days more to her NS

2005-03-09T00:41:00.000+08:00

These few days start to sms with her,feels quite good.She`s a gal who is very cheerful n likes piano very much..This kind of friend is the kind i`m hoping to noe for so long,as i just met two in secondary school ,wan is by best friend zi yi who is now in singapore n the other wan is a gal whom i noe only during competitions such as song composing competition..Can`t imagine i`ll noe wan in midvalley..But the timing seems like not very good..as she`ll be going to ns later..tats the fate..noe somewan who is so attractive n then she`ll dissapeared for months..After there months will our friendship still continues?Will she changed?Who noes?
Sigh...Better not to think so much..
Maybe i should just appreciate tat i noe such a friend in my life in such situation n treassure her as a friend....

9 days more she`ll be at NS

2005-03-05T00:20:00.000+08:00

Still feel like not used to the feel after she`s not working there..But yesterday felt very suprised to c her came n find me when she passed by..She said tat purposely dun tell me ,like tat only suprising...Really suprising leh,so happy to c her,n she looks even pretty in casual wear..
Feel very happy to sms with her,always so happy,tats the thing tat make her so attractive too..She`s going to ns liao,3 months ,little bit regret tat din get to noe her earlier,but i should be very grateful tat i`ll be able to noe her at last..n always be grateful tat i noe her in midvalley..in such a situation...
I must appreciate these few days..N now i`ll have more time as i no need to work till end of month as the manager said tat i can go now,so i quited..

Untitled

2005-03-02T23:43:00.000+08:00

Today morning tried to sms her,hoping the reply will be positive..1stly the delivered report came ,so tat the number does exist,then after sometime she replied,yeah..How nice,she like oso wanna be friend,n the conversation continue for quite a long time..She learned ballet,gymnastic b4 n oso learned piano..A little bit tian1 zhen1,n seems like she is happy all the time,really a nice gal to noe..Thankfully i still got a chance to noe her..
Tonight when taking ktm,felt quite sad n unusual,din c her anymore as she stopped working..N i`m quite bu shuang about her colleagues or friends who are just around me keep on gossip bout her from their conversation seems like they are quite jealous bout her n dun really like her guai guai gal style,huh,n then critized me as if purposely wanna let me listen?Wats de problem wif them?really irritating to c such 38 gals...

Impossible is nothing...

2005-03-02T00:30:00.000+08:00

Yeah...Yes..I noe her at last,can`t describe the happiness..
Today went to find her during lunch break,b4 tat planned to go to her shop invite her to have lunch together wif my friend wei leng,but then my friend came late n then she`s already out,i think tat she already noticed i`m around there liao.Then my friend came n urged me to go ahead,then at last dare to speak out.Suprisingly,she agreed liao..Thanks for my friend,as long as she`s a gal,so she`s not so scared n i`m oso not so scare ,so can talk naturally liao..
She`s wan year younger,oso talk alot,the atmosphere is quite nice,n wan thing tat i noticed tat her body language or gerak-geri is very nice,tats could be the main reason make me wanna noe her,maybe she got learn ballet or dancing etc..
Just too bad tats her last day n she`ll be going for ns after two weeks to sarawak.Anyway if not i noe tat tats her last day i oso wun go n noe her..Tats the fate..
From wat i noe after tat from my friend de friend,she learn piano n ballet,hardly can meet people who likes art like tat.And my friend oso said nice to meet her..
Hope can keep in touch wif her wif the hp number,hopefully is a real number?Its nice to noe a friend like tat...

Knowing her

2005-02-28T23:28:00.000+08:00

I must noe her now,or not she will not work there later n i wun be able to c her anymore..I`ve been hoping to noe her since 1st day c her in ktm station but y i always wanna wait until last minute only dare to noe her??huh??y i`m so useless??
Yesterday i got information tat she will work till 6th march,so today i purposely go earlier to midvalley n then go n find her.Y i`m so scare to noe her??i`ve standed at the south court for 15 minutes b4 i dare to walk near her shop,but too bad din c her inside.12pm,i tried again,this time i hesitated 10 minutes nearby her shop b4 i dare to walk in.When i walked in the shop,she is straight in front me,i`m in tremendous fear.Maybe becoz i was scare,my voice oso too low,after i repeated few times only she understand wat am i talking.N how stupid am i,i just told her i would like to noe her n told her my name,n then forgotten to ask her name.N then i walked away?Real stupid me,aih...................................
At night at ktm station,yes!she`s there.But i really dunno how to approch her,so i just pretend tat din c her,stupid huh?n then so coincidently today my dad can`t fetch me at ktm station,so i have to take lrt.I noe tat she will be there,n then my friend together wif me oso noe her,but still i dun dare to noe her.So there`s a tiang,i`m at the left n the gal wif her friend at the right,my friend in between.N then my friend asked her when she will be stop working,to my shock tomorow is her last day,she got ns,shit.....but i still din approch her...
Tomorow i`m working morning shift,n she mostly afternoon,i must go n noe her liao...or not i`ll regret tat i din did so in the future,i`ll wait till 10 after work n then take lrt back ..tats my last chance,i wun allow myself to miss it...never....

Suprises

2005-02-25T13:26:00.000+08:00

Still dun dare to noe the gal,maybe this dream will be over after spm result is out,yeah...
To my suprise,tat day went to another shop under the same company to buy uniform,adidas shoe,unexpectingly noe few new friends there.Not quite willing to buy the shoe,although got 40%discount ,but its still 200 after discount,damn expensive ,i never bought any accessories such expensive b4.But then when i walked in the shop,wan gal comes n served me,then told her no need to served me coz were under same company,then aftertat we got sth to talk bout,n then later i noe all the staff in tat boutique,its happy to noe new friend in such situation.N then at night after work suprised to c them again at ktm station,only noe tat they stay in bangi,huh,so far..from tat day onwards i`m not alone anymore after work,got friends to talk wif at ktm station,quite shuang de.Besides we are oso quite crazy in the train,sometimes seats on the floor if there isn`t any empty seats,if not they have to stand 45 minutes to bangi,of coz prefer to seat on the floor after whole day standing..

But i`m oso quite dissapointed to received the news tat my friends being called for interview for scholarship by university,but i`ve only being accepted for the course i wan by university.Not any chance for me to get the scholarship now.Can`t blame anywan,as my classmates` result are much more better n the university surely will considered them 1st,n i`m not working tat hard this year,now i`ve to pay for it..Learned a lesson in a hard way,i`ll never repeat this in university,if i got good result,i still be able to get scholarship in 2nd year,i`ll get it n i believe i`ll be able to get it,as i`ll work as much as i can for wat i`m interested...Its my time...

dream

2005-02-18T00:18:00.000+08:00

Hmm,long time din blog liao lo.Feel like blogging is meaningless,rather talk to a real person,,mao2 dun4,but stimes blogging can let me fa4 xie4 as i wan,so now i wanna fa4 xie4 here..
Since i`m 1st day on the job,i met her till now.Hmm seems like attracted by her liao.Everyday if i work afternoon shift,seems like will hope for her appearance at ktm station,everyday seems the same,jeans,red t-shirt n a blue bag.Already guessed her working place,too bad i`m at ground floor north court n she`s at south court 1st floor,so damn far.but even she work near my shop oso dun dare to noe her,so just dream ..Dunno when she will work till,hope tat can continue to meet her,but sure will end one day?So the best way is to noe her??Izzit possible????

2005-01-20T18:49:00.000+08:00

Yesterday my friend have gone back to Australia,as i`m working,i just sent a sms to her.At the same time,my primary schoolmate also back from Australia whom i met tat day came again as her sister wanna buy notebook,so she walk over here to chat.Although it was 6 year b4 when i last met her,but she just look like the same.Tat day can`t confirm becoz she tied up the hair,n then yesterday she came with the hair down,n just like her when in primary school.Chat for sometimes about old days memory,n dun really believe tat i still remember many things 6 years ago.After tat her sis. came n she have to go for another place,and i oso cannot chat so long since i`m working..

Primary classmate

2005-01-14T13:04:00.000+08:00

Yesterday at night when i was still working,suddenly saw my friend`s mum walked into my shop n seems like i`ve seen b4,then followed by her at the back.I can`t really confirm tat it was her,coz since graduated i`ve never seen her b4,but i got a feel she`s my primary schoolmate.So i looked at her again n she look back too,now i`m more sure tat she`s tat friend,but still dun dare to call her,as if its the wrong person,i`ll be in a weird circumstance.So i sent her a mail to made a comfirmation,n then suprisingly she replied me n said tats her,she oso recognized me but oso dun dare to call.She just look the same as in primary school,just tat time she got short hair,now with long hair.So happy to c a friend which haven`t seen for so many years.She has been studying in australia for the past few years n later will continue to study there.I din sleep well yesterday for tat i`m too happy for tat..

Offday

2005-01-13T10:52:00.000+08:00

Yeah,at last my offday came after wan week over working.So ngam yesterday was wed,so i got half price to watch movie,The Phantom of the opera which i wan to watch since it started to show.As the movie has been showing for wan month ,there were just a few people in the cinema,so i can choose my place without any booking.Dunno y,there were so many empty seats,but the ticket seller purposely put those people together,n than wan malay guy beside me oso watch alone,n then beside me was a couple.The movie is 2 n half hour,not long after the movie started,i felt like wanna go to toilet,alar,next time wan hour b4 movie better dun drink,so i wun feel comfortable to stand for another 2 hours,so i hurried to the toilet,hope tat i din miss any good scene.The whole movie is very very toching,most of the time is singing n tats wat i like most.Beside the actress is very pretty,seems like she`s just 18,but her singing not so good,can sing the song ,but lack of feel.The phantom sings good n he acts very good.I wanna find the opera dvd version now,surely can`t find it in Malaysia,maybe ask my friend in singapore to help,wat la malaysia,how can those music stores not seeling opera dvd,tats a very important part of culture.However,i still feel like wanna watch the movie again,mostly gonna buy a pirate dvd,the original copy i`ll prefer the opera version.

Customers

2005-01-10T21:29:00.000+08:00

Now it is wan week over for me to work in this shop,now i`m more n more impatient with those wan3 kat4 customers.Why say they are wan kat,coming in not to but things n then boombarding me with dozens question for half n hour,dunwan to buy things n still ask so much,huh,i`m a sales not a tutor,so now i can differenciate wheter the customer is coming to buy or not,n for those wan kat wan,i`ll wun waste my saliva talking so much n he/she ask,n i`ll answer,tats all.This happens most in weekend,those people tak han nth to do,or waiting for the movie show time,so every weekend,although there are many people in the shop,but the sales is lower..

Disturbance..

2005-01-10T19:52:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night received my friend`s call,1stly i`m very happy to get his call from singapore,and after tat he told me tat he found out my friend`s e-mail n some else n got into my blog to have a look,n he seems so happy and proud with it,din realized tat i`m very mad for wat he did.I told him tat i was very tired liao after working to end up the phone quickly,i scared i`ll scold at him if the conversation continued.He has been asking for her information for very long time n i din give him till now.After he noes many things,everywan will noe bout my things n tats not wat i wan,i like to stay private for sth.
Its not her fault,hope she wun misunderstand for tat i asked her to remove my link from her blog,i`m sorry..I dun mind to let her friend to c my blog,but i wun allow him in my blog..

Occurance

2005-01-09T10:31:00.000+08:00

Just now,i met the girl again,a girl i dunno totally,she seems like recognize me oso,n gave me a smile,very pretty leh.I met her since last sunday,1st day for me to work here,tat time 1stly met her at lrt station,then after tat have to change to ktm n tat time i was about late,then i saw the gal oso hurrying to the ktm station,so only i noticed her appearance.So ngam,the 9.30 train went away liao,so the next train will be 9.58,i`ll be late for the 1st day for my job,i guess she`s oso working at midvalley.So i keep an eye when i`ve reached midvalley n to my suprise she works here oso,somewhere north court level 1,coz she was oso late n was hurrying to work.At night,to my suprise i met her again at ktm station ,so i noe tat her working hour is just the same,10 to 10.So the second day when i went home i cc wheter she`s there or not n i saw her again.
But these few days i din c her n then today morning seems like waiting for her appearance when i took ktm to work,n then i met her again.Seems like every Sunday she looks more pretty,too bad i dunno her.I guess today i`ll have a good mood whole day for the pretty gal smile..

Working

2005-01-08T15:54:00.000+08:00

Long time since i`ve post the last post.Now I`m working six days a week from morning 10 to at night ten,so i`ll never c the sunset everyday,just the same neon like in midvalley,n i`m now posting this blog in the computer shop.
Working as a sales,i`ve got the opportunity to speak english everyday n i believe tat my english speaking will improve much after wan month.Besides,my sales skills oso improve days by days n now everyday i sell wan notebook,tats enough for me,n i`ll reward myself by having my lunch with bread story tarts which i like most.
Although this job is quite easy n i learned sth for it,it consumes too much time,i hardly have any time for myself as when i get back home i`ll sleep straight over ,besides it is quite boring by continuing the same routine everyday n whenever there isn`t customer i have to sit there without doing anything.But every sales job is about the same,i can`t complain much,just the working hour maybe too long,i must have a time for music n swimming.
tats all for now,or not i`ll be scolded for surfing net too long.

Last day of 2004 n last day for my job

2005-01-01T10:29:00.000+08:00

Today,is my last day for the job.Although the job is quite underpaid as one person gonna do two persons` stuff n everywan in my department is complaining,i still feel like dunwan to leave,maybe because people there treat me very good.So in the afternoon,i ate lunch wif them together.This time i took away the food back to the office to eat.Again the whole table only me wan guy,not very used to eat in such circumstance,quite torture,coz opposite me is wan lenglui,beside me oso,dunno where to situate my eyes again,so i finished my lunch as soon as possible.If i`m very talented in tackling gals,i would get there hp number,but since tat i`m not,so i din get their number..And then today i oso learned how to use photostat machine,quite advance the new photostat machine,n now i believed tat i will be able to work in a photostat shop.
As today is my last day,i will not work too long,so i left at about 5.30,then i called my friend to meet them at midvalley.There are watching kung fu,so when i reached there at 6.30 they show haven`t end as the show start at 5.15,so i walked around.I saw many job vacancy,i dun like to be a cloths promoter as i can`t learn anything for tat and it is just wasting time,so i headed for the it world.There are oso many job vacancy,so i went in to a computer shop n being interviewed for the job,now i`ve much experienced no matter for scholarship interview or job interview.When i was talking with the manager,my friends called me two time,alar i`m interviewing,y call me this time.After tat the manager said tat he have to inform hq to decide.B4 tat i`m working at sales administration at OSIM hq,everyday urging outlets for fax,now i`m working at outlets for the computer shop,but i wun be urged as sales admin only urge for outlet`s manager..
After tat we went to Kim garry for dinner,dunno y so many people there,although the food there only okok.And then the waitress very kacau,so we told her we`ll serve ourself.As we are sitting beside the window,n out of 7 person there only yin xin wan gal,so we keep on look outside hunting..And when we were eating there,there is a guy keep on looking inside,n his look is very tak boleh tahan,stupid lar,when we start eating there he was there n when we left he was still there.And when i`m eating,the manager called me back n ask me wheter can work start from today,of coz i wun work for the new year,so i told him tat i`ll reply him later.But i`ll take the job as it is quite conviniet to get to midvalley besides the music shop din call me back..
The shopping complex closed about 10 as there isn`t any countdown activity,so i took ktm back wif friends.Shocked me when i saw so many people crowded at the station,n we waited quite long for the train.I reached home at bout 11 then i watch Double hero until new year liao oso dunno,after tat received sms from friends only noe tat it is new year liao.I wanna reply but the line is quite conjested and i kept on failed to send msg,i can send it only after sometime..

3rd day at work

2004-12-29T21:55:00.000+08:00

Today is my third day at work,dunno y,i start to like the work liao,coz the staff there very good,got lenglui n most of all the office is definitely comfortable,but i`ve already gave out the letter of resignation,so it is not good for me to stay there although the HR asked me not to resign.I`ve settle down my job and it is much more easier for me,feel very man3 zhu2 when i`ve done things i should done.Afternoon,my department`s head asked me to go for lunch together,after i follow only i noe she wanna gave us a treat,thanks for her.Feel quite strange for me to have lunch together with another 5 gals,dunno where to locate my eyes.Somemore wan lenglui receptionist sitting beside on the round table,although she is much more elder than me,so gonna wait for everywan finish their lunch.Although there are many lenglui in the office,but this is oso another reason i wanna quit the job,although so many lenglui my eyes very enjoy,but after long term working in an 80% gals environment,i scared i`ll become sisy,so it is better for me to quite the job,but then cannot c lenglui everyday liao...

1st day at work

2004-12-27T22:30:00.000+08:00

Morning ,i went to the office ,as i dun have a pass,i can`t enter the front door.So i waited for stuff who went in and asked her(80% female staffthere) to bring me in.Then i`ve found the HR manager with the help of wan account dept. staff,thanks for her help,so i was asked to sit there to wait.Waiting nervously there,i oso observed the working environment,hardly c any male staff in the office,the few male staff i oso can recognize them all today,so of coz there are lengluis in the office,although i dunno any of them.Every staff have to wear uniform which is just a latte-colour t-shirt wif logo,n then the HR staff wrongly brought me gals t-shirt,alar,wasted my time,no wander the cutting so small for m size.I was taught to do stuff i have to do n there was a little messy for me to do it for the 1st day.And for the account clerk,there are six of them including me n others 5 are females.I was shocked to c so much data need me to enter as 24,25,26 are off days while the outlets are still selling things,I have to make many calls to outlets to ask them to fax some needed documents.I stayed there till 8pm without any ot n i`ve just finished 24th data.Four other clerks were still there when i left,n those accountants,seems like others clerk salary are lower than mine`s from their reaction when they asked me,shocked me for tat.I`m thinking of quiting the job tomorow as today i was asked to go interview for a music school wif salary 1500 a month,i`m looking forward for tat job as music is my soul,i`ll be more enjoy there wif my interest besides 50% more salary,even though i can`t get it,i can find a job better.So tomorow i have to ask wheter i can quit the job not...Although can`t c lenglui there n the working environment there is considered good,got 4 .5 stars out of 5,n the others staff quite friendly,just the load of job is not very equal to the salary paid..

距离

2004-12-26T01:00:00.000+08:00

自从与你见面后，我们之间仿佛有一道拉力，把我们之间的距离越拉越远。虽然一直尝试把这鼓拉力遏止，可是这鼓力量并没消失，反而随着尝试而增加。我犹如站在圆心，而你正如环绕着圆心的一颗星，渐渐地远离。我无从了解发生了什么事，也不想问你，因为你既不想说，那我又何必问呢？我不想因为干扰你的隐私，而失去你着朋友。也许我不该常把你方在第一位吧，保持适当的距离，也许会更好吧。无论如何，我依然会站在圆心，不会因为任何外力而改变，你依然是我最珍惜、最喜欢的。随着成长，你我也随着环境、朋友而有所改变,思想、观点也变得更成熟。虽然，这让我们之间的关系脱离了平衡点，但我并不埋怨这些改变，因为这是必然的。现在的你，有自己的理想，更加的成熟，比以前更特别，这可是一件好事。。
此外，我渐渐的感觉到网络的空虚，所以渐渐的不爱上网了。在网络上能畅谈一切，并不代表着真实世界里能畅谈一切，这正因为文字，是不能取代眼神、和声音的。而对于blogger，我可是又爱又恨，虽然让我有机会对你多些了解，可是却剥削了我们交谈的话题。。。
看来，近来你开始变得较开心了，我会为你而感到高兴的。明年你将要面对stpm，加油吧！！别太过沉迷与上网了。。祝你考试顺利。。

chirstmas + chirstmas eve

2004-12-25T19:40:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a chirstmas eve,so i decided to went out wif friend`s celebrate.Morning,i went wif chin wai which lives nearby to BB to buy a tuner I wish to buy for some time.After we took star lrt to hang tuah station,we changed on monorail to bb,coz his sister following n wanna took monorail,n this should be the 1st time i take monorail.But my 1st try izzn`t a good start,coz his sis is quite in a hurry,we 3 rush in to a train which is going to depart soon,as i`m following at the back,so i looked at they two got in ,n then when i wanna got in the train door was half-closed,i put my hand btw the door but gesture of re-opening,i dare not risk to get in,so i was outside the train n my friend is inside,n i have to wait for another train.When i reached bb station,my friend was waiting there n his sis has gone away.As we`re still waiting for zi yi,so i searched for my tuner while waiting for him.I went for Chamber Music inside Sg.Wang for tat stuff,but i can`t find wat i wan,so i headed for Bently Music opposite of KL plaza.The shop is very big for musical instrument store n i didn`t notice it b4 tat for so many years,alar..I got wat i wan inside and bought it,yeah,i`ve got my equipment n i`ll practise till my di zi`s pitch accuracy is +/- 5 cents accurate..And will i was dealing wif the shopkeeper,zi yi called n said tat he couldn`t find the shop,so i passed hp to chin wai n asked him to help anwering him.At last he found the shop n i`ve bought the tuner.So we three guys went to Sg.wang for lunch.While we were walking,we were kept on discussing about lenglui around the shopping complex,this should be a routine when guys are shopping together ,although some of them are quite lenglui,but i dun like lenglui around BB,their style not good..
After tat we went to Kelana Jaya,waiting to celebrate christmas eve.As we have nth to do at friend`s house,they played basketball again after watching kam1 zhong1 4 dai3 choi3 zhi2 replay.Not long after we start playing,it rained n i went to some covered area as i`ve already got a cold for few days,n i joined them after the rain stopped.We`d cancelled our earlier plan to 1U as wan of them said wanna go there to c fireworks,of coz there will not burning fireworks there for christmas eve,btw the damansara highway was conjested,so we went to Ming Tin food court nearby.Although the food there was not very delicous n somemore expensive,but still i called a big cup of apply juice which costed me rm4,but it is very enjoying for me to drink such a big cup of apple juice which i like most n long time din try it.After tat u guess where we went,huh,cyber cafe!!!As we didn`t play network games for quite a long time,then they said wanna find back the memory,alar,then we played there till today`s christmas.When we are going to left,those friends wu liao until chating on msn btw friends in the cafe,seems like pressure in chong hwa was too high until they were overwhelmed..After tat we went to mamak until 1am sth,n then we stayed at Key Seng`s house.5 ma lat lou slept in a room.we kept on chat until we slept only at 4am sth,chun kiat was telling his ""ghost"" story which made us laugh at him for the story was too loussy.And when we got up today,it was already 11,even late for brunch,n then after lunch we splited.
Wish everywan Merry Christmas..

Got my job

2004-12-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

Today went for my interview.Morning scared couldn`t find the place,so i decided to go there earlier.As i was too lucky to find the office without any difficulties,i reached the place 9.10,50 minutes earlier than the appointment,but i still decide to get in 1st.How stupid am i ,i keep on push on the front door,but the door doesn`t move,so i look at the receptionist(quite lenglui leh),then only i noe i should pull the door,hope tat the HR didn`t c tat i can`t open the door..Walked in the office,my 1st feel is the office environment very good,mostly made of green glasses,got few pots of plants,like a garden,so i would be willing to work there for few months..The receptionist lead me to a conference room n asked me to fill up the form and wait,so i did wat she told n then wait there.Waited quite a long time,about 40 minutes,then the HR manager came in,just as the appointment time,10 am.Little nervous,coz this is my 1st time interview for office job,somemore the HR manager oso quite lenglui,seems like sth wrong with the company,y so many lenglui inside,n then seems like i din c many guys there today,maybe they are in the office.The manager quite kind n polite,little suprised tat she talk to me using chinese,maybe scared i can`t speak fluently in english.She din ask me much question,maybe because this is just a small job,or maybe she got a cold can`t talk much,then she asked me to start work on next monday(how stupid n i again written tat i`ll be able to work after christmas,not noticing tat 26th is a sunday),n then suprisingly the salary quite good,n the working hour is normal.So excited to get my 1st job,although i`m again alone there coz the positions there are full n i dun have time to inform my friend to join me there.Maybe this will be another chances for me to learn to communicate n noe more friends.
In the evening,i`ve to open a saving account for the job,so i head for the bank.The bank`s working efficiency very cha leh,i took me 2 hours to open an saving account,wat lar,if everyday got 12 person open accounts,then the bank gonna open for 24 hours liao..But I`m still very excited coz i got my job liao....

Suprises..

2004-12-22T23:11:00.000+08:00

YEah,today i`ve almost settled my university application,both to NTU n NUS,now just left NTU payment n scholarships application for the two university,haven`t figure out what and how to write my self-recommendation letter,maybe wan or two days later.
To my suprise,when i was posting the register letter to university at pos malaysia,i received a call from an unknown number,after some conversation then i noe tat i was offered an interview for a general clerk vaccancy in OSIM.Can`t believe it,as i just simply left my contact in Jobstreet.com.my and then the 2nd day i`m called for interview.Hope i can get the job,so tat i have a salary to full-fill my dreams,a chromatic tuner,teeth braces,music stand or if can a cello or laptop,seems like too far away(allowed me to dream for few seconds),actually some income for me to yam cha or go for outings then enough liao.
2nd suprise is i received a call from my friend who has migrated to Australia n now she`s back for holiday,she used to sit beside me during form 5,quite nice the person.So i phoned her back when i went home n we chat for sometime as we din contact long time liao,coincidently she oso went to genting on 20,21,seems like everywan is there,no wander Datuk Lim can become tat rich..Maybe later will call some friends out for gathering as i missed my school wan4 ren2 yan4 by participating National Chinese Orchestra Competition final.Hmm,feel like my more n more of my classmates will be splited into different locations in the world when U. starts ,although most of them will be at Singapore....

Results,Travels,Vaccancies...

2004-12-21T22:51:00.000+08:00

Today is the day i`ve travelled around KL whole day.Morning,took lrt to titiwangsa station n then took bus to school to get my UEC result slip n SPM cert.,besides certify those photocopy certs,to my suprise i met some friends coincidently as we didn`t call any others b4 tat.Wasted for some time to wait for the deputy headmaster back to his office.
After tat i oso got my paid by helping a teacher to convert audio cassete to cd,tats my 1st income for december 2004.After everything had been settled,i took bus to kota raya to take bus to subang.B4 reaching kota,i gave a try to stop at Chow kit to look for a sales assistant vaccancy at a musical instrument store.When i reached the front door,there was a notice for vaccancy,but i was disappointed to find out tat the job is already occupied.So i continued my "journey" to kota.when i passed by Starbucks,i oso gave a try to c wheter there`s a vaccancy.The manager asked me to fill the form n i`ll be notify soon,seems like the chance to get the job isn`t high.So i continued my journey to subang.Although the bus is air-conditioned,it is still stuffy and the journey is quite a long time,wat a torture.When i`ve reached subang,i head for IDP to get my result.Little disappointed when i noe tat i got 6.5 in the exam,anyway ,i`m satisfied with the result as i didn`t prepare much n the result is enough to help me into U.
I`m quite short of time to settle the payment for U application.I hurried to the bank to buy a bank draft after lunch hoping to send those supporting documents to U. but only noticed tat i din photostat my birth cert.,so i have to settle it tomorow,its not so hurry actually as the closing date is after 3 weeks.
When i got out of the bank,i saw a clerk vaccancy sticking at the front door,yeah,i`m just looking
for the job,so i called to the admission office immediately n i`m so stupid to told him tat i would be coming over there the moment.So i typed my job application letter in 5 minutes n then prepared some documents n then sent it to the admission office.After 10 days camp,my english level oso dropped much leh and i`ve forgotten many things when typing the letter.I`ll be notify later oso ,maybe for an interview ,or it is better tat i`ll be hired straightly..

张雨生-天天想你

2004-12-20T23:24:00.000+08:00

听到这首歌，心中便会自然的有个共鸣，身在远处高原上的你，是否感觉到我的思念呢？山上云雾随着冷风飘散,白茫茫的一片,犹如冬天的白雪,这可是你的心愿之一吧.尽情的享受圣诞气息吧，让悲伤随寒风白云飘散，找回开心的心情，而我会为你而感到高兴，默默地祝福你。。

天天想你
當我佇立在窗前
你愈走愈遠
我的每一次心跳
你是否聽見
當我徘徊在深夜
你在我心田
你的每一句誓言
迴盪在耳邊
隱隱約約
閃動的雙眼藏著你的羞怯
加深我的思念
兩顆心的交界
你一定會看見
只要你願意走向前

天天想你　天天問自己
到什麼時候才能告訴你
天天想你　天天守住一顆心
把我最好的愛留給你

10 days camp n competition precious experiences

2004-12-20T02:58:00.000+08:00

由于这次的经历太可贵,加上我的英文表达能力不佳,所以我决定用中文写,以免文字剥削了这么美好的回忆.
莫名奇妙的,我因为比赛参加了康乐华乐团,并参加了他们的训练营.第一天来到时,便有朋友主动来认识我,俊毅,一位非常热爱音乐,擅长玩钢琴和大提琴的朋友.开始时还不知道他是该乐团的主席,直到数天后..过后因为我是唯一一个来自隆中华的,所以就被推做组长,这可是一个挑战,但是也让我更能认识新朋友.训练营的前四天和后四天有相当程度的差别.前四天比较多娱乐活动,主要是准备董总万人宴,因此比较轻松.感觉上康乐这乐团真的很特别,很好玩,大家都很团结和很有默契,这是许多乐团所做不到的.最令我佩服的是乐团的领导层,特别是指挥岫杰老师.她非常关心乐团的每个团员,同时也能和团员们打成一片.在她的指挥下, 我感觉到在有要求下但又能轻松的享受音乐的乐趣,这次能做为她的学生,可是我的荣幸.
需要一提的是,训练营中有位团员相当像一位我认识的朋友,看到时就令我想起她,感觉很奇怪.不过也只是样貌相似,并不重要.
第四天后,便开始准备比赛. 虽然很累,但却很开心.第一次尝到连续8次完整合奏一首合奏曲,非常刺激.此外还有舞蹈训练课程,一个很好的体验,让我意识到如何运用肢体做为语言..
到了16日初赛当天,就是训练营的最后一天,大家穿着DIY的t-shirt 抵达现场,可说是全场绝无仅有的,感觉很自豪.到了比赛时间,有些紧张,但又很兴奋,团员之间都在互相鼓励.比赛开始时,大家都有些紧张,出现了错误,很高兴的是错误并没有导致混乱,所以接下来反而更有信心了.
第二天是初赛二,我们都来等成绩,也看了其他队伍的演出.这天,也是我第一次到康乐学校(之前的练习刚好都在新纪元学院).当成绩揭晓时,大家都非常兴奋,一起喊口号唱歌,也因为这样被其他人投诉.这是对我们的肯定,大家的努力都没白费.
因为我们进了决赛,所以18日当天又有机会演出.演出前我们在康乐练习,这次的练习,感觉更有默契以及更能表达出歌曲的感觉,非常高兴.到了天后宫,很惊喜的发现静柔来到了现场支持,真的很感动,好久没见到她了.可是由于票卖完了,她无法进入现场,结果白白的来看比赛.真的很对不起她,让她在那里度过难受的一天..
话说回头,比赛时我们的表现表现还不错,不过气愤的是,比完赛后我们身为演员竟然不能进场看比赛,就连荧幕直播也没有,太过分了,结果一直等到1 am左右成绩揭晓.有些难过我们不能进入四强,团员们对此都相当失望.而我在难过之余,心中更有一份不舍,需和他们分别了,以后的见面机会应该也不多,也只能随缘吧,这可是一个非常美好的回忆与体验....

Waiting for result

2004-12-08T15:11:00.000+08:00

Tomorow is 8th dec,hmm,a day i`m waiting desperately,eagerly,it seems a dozen years past for this day to come.Although i`ve tried to get into the site for the exam result with some way but its not working,so i`ve to wait until 9am of 8th dec for my result.Wat will the result be?Can`t guess,but hope tat it will satisfy my expectation so tat i can get in the University n the subject i wish to get it,of coz if can get a scholarship will be the best,owning the bank money isn`t good the feeling.

.....

2004-11-26T16:28:00.000+08:00

Today went to petaling street.Seems like long time din go there since spm exam over as i dun have to go tuition anymore .Since the street is covered with roof,the original feel sounds different.And i walk there nervously and looking wheter there is a /are glasses falling down,like ji3 ren2 you1 tian1 in chinese idioms.After looking over 5 shops,at last i`ve found the thing i wan in the 5th shops.Huh,some shopkeeper really impolite their attitude,next time i`ll never visit those shops anymore.And i`ve bought some stuffs for my flute`s maintainance..

normal day

2004-11-25T16:03:00.000+08:00

Today whole day nth to do,slept till afternood only wake up,sleep until sien.Compare to those stpm students,I feel little sorry as they`re so busy with their projects n studies while i`m sleeping n wasting time whole day.I can only wish them all the best to them and hope their projects will be successful..
Feeling sorry about myself,i open the TOEFL preparation cd then took a test.Well the exam is computer based n of coz no speaking section n nobody marks for my essay,so i din do the essay.What i did is just listening,comprehension section n grammar section.Feeling suprised,the average mark i got is quite ok ,if in real exam the marks can take it as a reference to get in U,so i`m quite happy for that.But is is also quite tiring facing the computer for two hours some else the program is in low resolution.After tat i practise my flute for bout 3 hours till my toungue very tired.Anyway,i`ve finished practised wan more song for competition n now there is just wan more song left.I no need to be too worry bout this sat.`s practise.

happy

2004-11-23T15:29:00.000+08:00

Today morning too sien liao nth to do,then went to friendster simply look around,and then so lucky let me find back many primary school friends whom i din contact for long time,so excited,miss them so much.Dunno wat will it be the atmosphere if have gathering ?But seems like dun have same topic to talk with if meet those friends..Anyway,find them back in friendster then happy liao,although i dun use it much.

My IELTS exam is around the corner liao,its time for me to do some preparation liao.Huh,i dun even look for the format leh before tat,seems like dun care bout the exam.Of coz not lar,the exam so expensive,i`ll respect to the money i`ve paid n try my best although the cert. not important anymore to me.Besides my english oso need to improve more..Guess wat,i prepare the exam using TOEFL preparation cd,although both are english exam,but toefl is american paper n ielts is australian paper,strange leh.But the fact is i have to improve my listening skill oso after reviewing the cd as i guess for ielts it also will speak with the same tempo.hehe,good excuse to watch movie leh..

Today i oso went swimming.At 1st thought tat not many people there on monday,but there are still quite a number.As usual,90% guys there n very few gals,lenglui dun say liao,so i go for swimming not to c lenglui..Dunno since when i like swimming leh,although i`m not good at swimming,remember last time very scared of water.Haha,maybe pisces de gua,fish have to stay in water gua.Nolar just feel like got more freedom in the water..
After swimming very tired leh,feel like wanna sleep.But feel very happy coz today broke my record liao,swam 500 m continuosly..yeah..And i still insist to on9..

空虚

2004-11-22T15:55:00.000+08:00

午觉后突然觉得一片空虚，空闲但却不想做任何事情,打电话找好友，可是刚好他不在。一旦没事做时，脑海里就会莫名的浮现她,听着张洪亮的歌<心爱妹妹的眼睛>的intro,cello 和violin似乎在对话的intro不禁令我十分感动，真佩服编曲家的功力。还是找些事情做吧，总不能有事无事就找朋友，就练笛子好了。练了两小时，总算有些进步。笛子(棒笛)，声音非常的嘹亮，感觉上较开朗活泼，正和我心情相反，难怪总觉得吹奏时有些不足，我想现在的心情较适合弹钢琴或是拉cello吧。一直都很想学cello,可是1.cello 很贵2.学费很贵，所以也只好在乐团中随意玩玩一番。嗯，心情还是很差，不想跟任何人交谈。正巧，遇见了她，很高兴，可是却没什么话题，感觉上有些距离，还需要时间适应吧，也不知如何是好..突然又想起以前作的一首歌，<距离>，歌词是这首曲的对象写给她的朋友的:
彼此身在异乡处，是方向，我们拥有相似点，
只因淋浴在圣池，全然忘却自己，
卷入距离的漩涡，不断在内回旋盘转，
磨去一次又一次，建立的友情楼塔；

*是距离冲淡了一切，远方的朋友，要看清方向，
不要一再被他迷惑着，
请让我侵入你心扉，诚心诚意的投心相依，作知己；

只因为时间的流去，间于距离，若不当下斟酌，当下肯定自我，
依然故我何从放下，徘徊在，十字路口，未来犹如迷雾，
空洞的时间犹如梦，不谓前途，融化掉距离，融合一切万物，
就让我们相约在圣池，相约在，不久将来，留下一息芬芳。
Repeat *

有些语无伦次，还是睡觉好了...